glider18 wrote:
Personally, I feel fake if I smile for a picture. About the only time I smile is if I'm laughing---then it's beyond a smile. Smiling is very awkward for me...
You've just perfectly described my smiling habits.
People tell me that my facial expression usually looks rather grim, as if I am really displeased with something. I hardly ever am. Most of the time I feel pretty good inside. But I guess I don't often look it.
Smiling always feels forced, fake and awkward, unless I am really deeply laughing.
I remember one time, about 10 years ago, I was at the dentist's office, and he was assessing the alignment of my teeth for the possibility of dental surgery. The exchange was frustrating and ironically funny:
He comes in and says, "OK, smile for me."
I smile a big huge toothy fake smile.
He says, "No, no. Just smile naturally."
I give what I think is a more restrained, natural smile.
He hesitates, then says, "Uh, no that's not it. You know, just
smile naturally."
I try again, attempting to move my mouth into what I think an acceptable natural smile could possibly look like.
He looks puzzled. "Um... no, like this..."
He smiles and tries to show me what he means.
I give my best imitation.
Clearly impatient, he says, "OK, that's fine, let's take a look here..."
and proceeds to inspect the subtleties of my smile.
It's amazing looking back on that now
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