Are you your own best companion?

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For the majority of my life I was concerned that I never found true companionship. At least not what I imagine it's like for other people. It seemed to me that this was the number one goal for most people. Like they weren't complete without someone else to help complete them. I watched friends drift away every time they fell in love with someone or were simply dating and not even in love.

It seems that the majority of movies and such almost play the roll of social training. Companionship can only be found in a romantic relationships seems to be one of the societaly taught concepts through the media we consume. A person is bad if they spend time with a friend they have had for many years instead of with someone they are now in a new romantic relationship with is an example.

I watched the few friends I managed to make drift away every time they started a new romantic relationship. It lead to me worrying about the fact that I seemed immune to finding romantic relationship of my own. I worried that eventually I would be all alone.

About three months ago my entire circle of friends all moved away (best friend, best friend's parents, and two other friends). It's very hard for me to make friends. I haven't made a new real friend in about ten years. I was actually very happy to just have the small group of friends I had. I prefer quality over quantity. I don't see why some people are so driven to have tons of friends they aren't really very good friends with and cannot rely on.

So here I am. I'm basically in the situation I was most scared of my entire life. My family is 800 miles away, I cannot move because I owe more for my condo than it's worth now, and all my friends have moved to other states. But, I'm not upset like I thought I would be.

I've been able to become comfortable with myself on many levels over the past year. This is the first time in 32 years that I can say that. I actually like being me now. I think the reason I am ok with what has happened is because I'm not scared of being alone anymore. I don't know if there is someone out there that can compliment me as a companion as well as I can myself. If new relationships comes along, that's fine, but I'm not going to make that happening or not affect my outlook. I think I'm perfectly capable of being my own best companion now that I accept and love myself.

Can anyone else relate to this? Are you your own best companion?

Please share your thoughts and experiences with this topic if you have them.

I find that I am my own best friend. I can be alone for hours, listening to music and posting on WP.

I am, but I wish to have better companions than myself. Not that I'm a bad companion, but it is sad for me to be my best companion.

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Maybe, but I still feel alone. None of my family wants to come to see me and I have no friends. The fact that I'm trying to recover from a fractured left knee and left ankle makes me less independent and worried about everything. It's just not right to be suffering alone!

the machine is my companion

I don't feel lonely for lack of friends, but I have always felt I needed a partner. It might change as I get older, but at the moment I don't feel my life will be complete until I have someone to share it with.

Until then, though, I guess I'm content to be my own best companion.

This poll needs an option for a pet being the best companion.

Sorry, it won't let me add a new option.

I've been guilty in the past of (more or less) dropping friends when I've begun a romantic relationship. But they've always had other people for company as well....luckily there's never been anybody outside of romances who saw me as so central to their life that they'd be severely hurt if I were to be with them less often - at least as far as I know. The only exception was my son....when I got my own partners after separating from his mother he tended not to like it, but I made sure his needs came first whenever there was any contest, and annoyed one or two women that way.

But I've never completely closed the door on anybody because of a romance, apart from a rather promiscuous old flame who turned up when I'd found a monogamous relationship....it wouldn't have been reasonable to expect my new partner to trust her with me, though I felt quite bad about lettting her go.

As far as I can remember I've not been "dropped" by anybody for the sake of their romantic growth....there have been a few couples I'd have liked to have shared more time with but had to make allowances for their own commitments to each other and give them a bit of privacy. And of course when my son began to grow up I had to accept that my role there was in some ways gradually coming to an end - it hurt a lot, but of course there's no escaping it.

I voted "too complicated" for the "own best friend" thing. There are many ways in which I trust myself more than I trust anybody else, and I do have a lot of trouble coping with people, but I wouldn't want to be alone permanently...left in my own company I can start going round in ever-decreasing circles, so although I don't always like it, I need the input of others to give me a better view of myself and what I'm trying to do.