OCD (Obsessive Compulsion Disorder)

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I've deleted my all my saved websites associated with Lead poisoning, rooted out the causes to my manic panic state of mind, understood the causes to be false and unnecessary and to follow this fact to cure me of further worry.

It should be said with 'truth' that there are many aspies in the world who worry over trivial matters, I am sad to say that I am one of them.
Way back in September a simple problem of a broken boiler pipe led me think about Lead poisoning for six months, 7 days per month, 15 hours per day, 60 minutes per hour, basically every minute while I was conscious.
Being made aware that the boiler pipe in my bedroom was made of lead gave me reason for concern, but the real concern began when I read about the affects of lead poisoning, oh yeah, knowledge really is a good thing, right?
I began reading websites issuing warnings about 'lead paint in homes', on doors, windows, walls, basically in you home, 'the place in which you thought you felt safe in'.
Basically, my imagination took over at that point, and before I knew it I began seeing lead all over my clothes on my books and worse of all, in the atmosphere in which I breathed in. But it didn't end there, I even had thoughts of my dad sanding down lead paint and blowing it into my bedroom, yep your imagination can really play some mean tricks on you.
I even had two lead blood tests both of which came back as low lead concentration, and yet I was still adamant that I was still being exposed to Lead.......

This nonsense clever trick of the imagination and knowledge of lead was the perfect recipe for 6 months of constant worry and concern, it halted my daily feast of learning and affected my communication at work, my inspiring imagination to further my progress...
What might seem a trivial concern to one person might be a serious or threatening concern towards a person with aspergers, it doesn’t make any difference whether the possibilities of that concern is made low, when a person with AS has the facts he/she will swear truth by them.

I read the affects of lead poisoning, the source of lead and to whom which household was categorised at most risk, I felt that I was at risk and nobody could convince me otherwise.
Since this experience, what I have learned is that I often don’t grasp or even notice possibility outcomes of events, i.e. I rely on proven investigation and knowledge to seek the truth rather then rely on luck/chance and possibility, I wouldn’t be hesitant to say that I only think of negative thoughts, otherwise I would never set foot on a aeroplane.
For me today, its learning not to take facts and proven knowledge at face value, it is learning to accept possibility and chance as a first or second option. Who knows, this rule might work on me.