That message is from LAST YEAR!!
It is ridiculous to still be focusing on it after all this time. Seems you are obsessing about it.
KateSmith wrote:
for i have kept it all bottled up inside of me. ... I guess i will always remember that one.
Meanwhile, Alex forgot all about it. Probably would not have even remembered posting that particular message.
Forget about it, you are just torturing yourself unnecessarily. There is no need to obsess about this. Move on. It is not worth spending any more of your energy on.