I need some guidance I'm in a Tough Spot.

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When I started high school I tried to be nice and talk to people but they barley ever talked to me then after couple of months things started to get even worse because I had a hard time socializing then I fell out of high school and then I started getting depressed then my parents sent me to these professorial shrinks and they found out that I had asperger.

Then after I heard that I started getting really pissed and started shutting myself inside and I started to become a pretty cold person looking at everything with all kinds of problems. But at the age of 20 I got into this game design school which is really fun but I'm still having a hard time socializing I also have a tutor that helps me out a little with this 3d stoff because after all those years that I've been away from learning I see that I need some extra help because it takes a little longer for me to learn this 3d stoff. But I just don't know, I'm still confused at the point where I am now sometimes.

It manly comes down to socializing damn its so tough sometimes my mother and my sisters says it will get better after a while, But I don't really see that much improvement on the socializing side, my class is very quite one that I have noticed.

I saw this movie State Of Grace http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0100685/ and it sord of reminded me of the cold person I was before.

I find it helps to think about who you are socializing with, and how, rather than just seeking "socializing."

You're in a game design school, that means that everyone you see on a daily basis is really, really interested in games. Since you are too, you should be able to have conversations solely about games and programming.

Here's what I'd do: try to develop a specific kind of relationship that centers around your interest. If you find someone you can spend hours talking about your interest with, I don't think it will matter much that you have a hard time talking about things outside that interest. In a way, you'll have put the socialization on your terms.

In the course of it, some tangents will come up, some of their other interests, small talk, and such. Normally, these would account for a very large percentage of one's interaction. But in a relationship centered around a single common interest, you will be able to slowly start to engage with these tangents. Also, these are recognized as tangents.

My advice: try to find that one or a few people you can comfortably talk games with. Ease into it, because undoubtedly you will find shared interests to expand the terms of the relationship.

You may not find yourself talking to random strangers with ease, but I guarantee you will have found a few people you can comfortably discuss shared interests with. And that is a very big first step.

Remember that we can find it difficult to judge these things, and can be negatively biased by our anxieties and such. "No, they can't think I'm a friend! That's impossible!" may be entirely inaccurate. We can be the worst judges of how much others like our company. Many times this works to our disadvantage (e.g. not noticing that we habitually anger others), but sometimes it means we end up having an overly pessimistic view of how others view us.

I think of it this way: if I enjoy speaking to someone, they are a friend. Reciprocity is nice, but won't exist without first showing your own friendliness. If you find yourself comfortable talking to someone, does it really mean that much to worry about whether they view you as a friend or an acquaintance?

Hi man! I'm learning Maya!
(of rather said, re-learning, I know 3ds Max, but that's only for PCs! so, now that I'm on a Mac, Maya is what I need )

back on topic, I agree whit what has already been said,
and also, join gaming dev forums, maybe you'll find some local group of related people near you!

AND, I'm happy that you're already on the right track, knowning that you have NEEDED to change to become a better person, and thank God you have a supporting mother and sisters, you're very a lucky man, very very lucky, not all families are like that, thank God for that.

btw read this book: Viktor Frankl's Man's search for meaning. It saved me.