Wanting for things that you don't already have

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I don't understand how people make decisions to do things that they aren't currently doing. For example, my friend has decided to go to uni next year and I feel really confused by this. Could I just choose to do that? But I am not "a student". I appear to have no ability to picture what that would be like, to change my perception of my life and the things in it.

I feel like I don't want for anything that I don't already have. Not because my life couldn't be improved (it is far from perfect), but because there is absolutely no image or idea in my head of what any alternate could be. I don't even think to think about it. I even feel this way about new objects. I desperately need a new laptop, but I HAVE a broken laptop. And that is the current situation. And that is all that I know of myself and a laptop at the moment.

Make sense? Sorry, it really is a confusing concept to me.

I already have a half-broken hairdryer. I already have a 8 year old computer. I already have a carpet in my smaller room that I played on as toddler. I already have a very old and worn desk. Collection of LPs, books, many of them never used...

I want things I don't have but I don't see how to get them. The thing I want most now is to move and all I can do is wait for my name to come up on the waiting list. I'd like an income but I can't imagine how I'd actually find and keep a job.