15 Dec 2011, 1:35 pm
First of all i want to say i'm 22 and i'm very angry because nobody believe me i have asperger. My mother think i have depression or other serious mental disease and that's very frustrating, sometimes i feel ashamed about myself. In my country very few people know about this condition so its like a social stigma to be different, to be a loner. I was all my life a loner, i hate crowds, maybe i had 1-2 very good friends but after a time i broke up the friendship definitely because our different way of thinking. At first sight i may appear normal & i'm struggling to look like other people but somethimes many see i'm different and they avoid me. I don't feel bad when i'm alone, people make me feel very tired because they seem to be very superficial and i can't understand their view about life. In school i've been bullied many times by my classmates, they made fun of me and of my name, it was the hardest and nightmarish time in my life. The reason i think i have mild asperger is because i don't like people's company maybe very few people around me, i have the habit to invert the sense of the words (i think i have dyslexia too), i have strange habits like wearing the same clothes every day, i do some things more than once, i have troubles with gestures and expressing myself (i usually have a blank expression on my face, regardless of my mood). I can still empathize sometimes and have no problem 'reading' others, though i have trouble understand irony and some jokes. Everytime i say to my mother about that she become angry and tells me to shut up. 
She always tell me to make some friends but she does not understand how hard it is for me 
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