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I'm getting frustrated lately because, even though on the one hand I'm doing quite well, on the other hand I'm not. I'm having real problems expressing myself verbally. I want to speak and in my head it seems quite intelligible but then when I open my mouth to speak I sound like someone who has never learnt to talk. All my words are upside down, I can't put a sentence together and I just don't know what to do.

When this happens to me, I write, I just write anything because I need to express myself and I must find a way to otherwise I go into overload mode, and I am pissed of, on verge of a meltdown and generally pain in the a** to those around me.
Another solution is to play music.

I think this helps me because, as more and more thing fill up my mind, and I can't find a way to let them out, I am simply overloaded.

I usually do pretty well now at my job since I've been doing it for a few years. But I just got reprimanded for--- being unsure of myself and coming across as nervous/socially inept. Even though this occurred after my employers put me in a totally unfamiliar and awkward situation. They even admitted it wasn't fair but that I was still in trouble for becoming nervous/awkward and unsure what to do. So, yeah, the expressing of things verbally can be difficult, even with practice because it is difficult to predict every situation that one may get into... it is difficult to "play it off" when certain social situations arise. I don't like it.

I've been that way for several months now. I usually know what I want to say and how to say it, but when I actually try to say it it comes out jumbled and not at all like I wanted. My writing is also the same way which is why I don't post here much. I think of exactly what I want to say, but then I say it and it doesn't make sense so then I get mad. It's probably stress related. Are you under a lot of stress right now?

I'm not really under any more stress than usual, I'm usually quite nervous anyway when I talk, I stutter a bit and stuff like that but it just seems to have got worse, It sounds really bad because my speech becomes slurred as well and it sounds like I'm on drugs or I'm drunk.