Can you reach to the top?

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Sometimes I feel like I'm climbing a ladder, and instead of taking all the steps carefully, I try to skip steps.

Does anyone else get that feeling? I feel like people expect too much of me, and then I try to get to the top of the ladder, but surely fall short with my stumpy legs. That's how I feel like in real life. Parents, friends, colleagues, etc. expect this great leap, without realizing I'm not actually capable of it. What don't they understand? It seems like they want to make me fail, instead of realizing I will succeed better, but at a slower, steady rate.

It is the curse of unrealistic expectations. They think I can be and act normal if I only put enough effort into it. Then they get frustrated and upset because I am not normal, and therefore I must not be putting enough effort into being normal, so I am at fault, and thus deserving of their frustration and anger. It--and they--will never change. I base this on over 5 decades of life. That is why I am so glad that I live alone now, and I never want to live with anyone again!

Can you reach to the top?

I try to live up to my own expectations and fulfill promises(one of which involves my primary interest) that i make.

Right now, I'm trying to decide how best to pursue an interest where i can be happy and contribute something positive. I want to be the very best in what i do whether i reach the top or NOT.

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TheSunAlsoRises

Oh the lovely unrealistic expectations! I can see how living alone helps. I think I would have to cut off contact to just about everyone in my life so there wouldn't be anyone expectating something from me.