I think I'm going a little bit crazy

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Once I was on the bus with Lauren and I saw a post man go buy on a bike wearing a bright yellow shirt thing that post men wear and I said, "I wouldn't like to be a post man cos they have to wear those yellow shirt things," and Lauren said, "I think you have Asperger's Syndrome," and this was just because she was reading House Rules by Jdi Picoult at the time because sh elikes that woman's books but I don't really, but anyway, and they guy in it doesn't like orange and I don't like yellow so that's why she said it. And then time went by and this on the bus was just a little comment she made but ages later she started saying it more on account of different things I do and the way I act, my little quirks and etc., and people always describe me as crazy and weird and quirky. And then I started researching about Asperger's on the internet and looked at all these symptom checklists and etc, and a lot of it seemed to fit even though Meaghan Jones said I didn't have it and said Lauren was dumb, and Lauren said I didn't have it and it was a joke, but then she said she was joking about joking, then joking about joking about joking, and I said, "So were you really joking or not?" and she said, "You'll never know," which was annoying on account of now I can't stop obsessing over whether or not I might have Asperger's and I just keep thinking about it all the time, and I've always been very obsessive and once I get an idea in my mind I can't stop thinking about it. Ben Bradley thinks I read about all these symptom and behaviours in books and internet and then sort of adopt them and start acting that way. My sister thinks I have it though and my dad jokes about me having it, and Lachlan Main said he thought I did once...but Vanessa completely dismisses me and says, "Stop obsessing about it Blake!" which makes me feel embarrassed and ashamed. So anyway, all this unsureness is really driving me crazy! It's not that I'm scared of having Asperger's or anything, just that I want to know for sure...and I saw this webste and thought maybe it could help...so anyway, sorry about talking so much and rambling for ages I have a habit of talking nonstop sometimes, but what I really wanted to ask is, How do I know for sure if I have Asperger's Syndrome or not? I mean, I've read stuff about diagnostic process and etc, but all that seems very difficult to initiate, and I wouldn't know where to start...and plus it would make me really ashamed to be told by some professional somebody that I'm just being hypochondriac or crazy adopting symptoms like Ben Bradley thinks...so yeah, I would[i] like to get officially diagnosed or something, or at least know for sure, but I just don't know how. Can anyone help me with this?

The only way to know 100% for sure is to get professionally diagnosed. Look for psychiatrists that specialize in or work with autism. Once you find one that can work with you, go through the testing with him / her and wait for the results. Don't worry too much about whether or not you have it. Either way, you'll know 100% for sure in the end, and it'll be a huge relief that you won't have to wonder and ponder about it anymore. That's how it went for me, anyway.

Since it is really bothering you, I suggest you do seek a professional evaluation. Go to a psych doc that specializes in Autism/Asperger's, as he/she will be more knowledgeable about it, and thus better able to assess whether you have it or not. It's also possible that you have some other related condition instead or comorbid with it. The psych doc can help you with that. Check in the phone book under Mental Health. If you are short of money, look under Mental Health on the government pages of the phone book, not the yellow pages. The government paid docs generally have a sliding pay scale based on your ability to pay. If that's still a problem, you can apply for Medicaid first, to get at least temporary med coverage, so you can see a psych doc for this.

It's not something to be afraid of. Finding out I have Asperger's was a tremendous relief for me because now I know why I am so different from most people. Not knowing caused me a lot of stress.

By the way, welcome to Wrong Planet! Although the site is about Asperger's and other Autism spectrum disorders, it is open to anyone. Enjoy your visits here and check out the interesting and different forums here.

Wow, thanks for the great advice! I've done heaps of research about it, and this is the first actual helpful thing anyone's said to me! I'll do just what you said, Questor!
Yeah, I think once I do find out it will be a relief. I'm not afraid or anything, just wanna know for sure! It was actually really great to get a response like this, so thanks heaps!