Putting the mainstream into autism

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Autism and mainstream you say? Preposterous. Maybe so, but continue reading.

Ever since I became cognizant of the effects that music can have on my personality/attitude, I am not without some sort of music at any part of the day, save classes/intellectual moments. For example, if I am angry, even irate, I will pull up some Eminem, or the like. Something to which I can relate, decipher, and understand. If I'm feeling jovial, rather pleased, I will find some classic rock, like The Beatles. The list goes on and on. Anyway, I recently discovered that the so called "hipster indie" music is able to handle all of my moods, to calm me down, if you will. By no means do I want to be a "hipster"; I do not fit, psychologically, with that social group. Being said, I try to stray away from being labeled as the "weird shy kid"; however, while listening to said mainstream indie rock, I get the impression that I need to talk the talk, as well as walking the walk. While I do enjoy listening to that type of music, something tells me that the impression I give people is that of a poser, or one who tries to fit in, yet does not.

I don't really know if this is posing a question, however, I would like to reach out while at the same time, be reached to, if you will. Maybe I'm just a nut case.

That would have made you a mid-90s goth. But I see where you're going with it; lots of us are tagged as posers when in reality they feel forced to wear the costume of their cliques