as, not a label a person inside. hatred, confusion and upset

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Hey all.

i know you guys probably have the same problems sometimes. but i find i hate people labeling me, it makes me so angry, i have violent thoughts through my head when someone is annoying me and im not mental, i just get really upset, all the things i think are stuff i learnt in boot camp and it horifies me myself. it scares me and i hate it. some times i want to say to myself to go away i just find it so hard even interacting with people. the only person i have ever really had such a deep understanding of is with my cousin neil who also is aspergic and he has always been a constant help. does anyone feel angery and not understood, dont you wish there was a way to just walk away from the idea of the labels and the ridicule. all i want is to live a peaceful life there is no normal but there is peace. tell me why should my life be different to those around me who enjoy good lives.
brother devil

I've only recently discovered AS and have been experimenting with "coming out." I find that people who don't know me well treat me differently in ways I don't care for after the lable is out there, so I think I'm going to go more often with the shrug and smile and say "I'm just weird that way." The co-workers from my last job were great. They had already known me 5 years, so they only treated me differently in the ways that I asked them to (communication issues.) I still haven't come out to the people who have known me 25 years because I don't want to argue with them about whether or not I have AS. They love me the way that they have known me and nobody wants to change that. Now if they'd just get over my diet preferences...

I talked about AS with my brother, he agreed with me..

I've also shared it with my mum, she also agreed.

I couldn't even mention it to my dad, he's been hiding his obsessive, routine nature for so many years he gets really angry when he's even brought up in relation to me.

Anyway hiding it can be good, but be careful about relationships, I've said it too many times before, but repressing yourself in a relationship will only hurt both of you..

If you are to love, love and obsess over someone who loves the real you.

Its true some people won't want to understand, so I wouldn't share AS with them, but I make sure I warn people of my differences if I'm beginning to get close to them in any way, I just have to make sure now.

I'm doing the same as MrMark. It WOULD be nice to say HEY, I found out WHY! There is a REASON! Everything is related, and MAKS SENSE! Sadly, some documentation focuses on PROBLEMS that aren't even really part of autism. Granted, they MIGHT present in the most extremely bad cases, but may not, and they are never consistant. I think wikipedia says it best, but even they could emphasize the neutral and positive a bit better.

And autistic DOES have a bad connotation, even if the word ITSELF DOES indicate what I consider a nuetral symptom and is one of the MAIN sympoms that causes them to all be related. 8-(

Steve

And the media is making it worse. Just this Sunday, on Family Guy, Peter described Grimmace from McDonalds as "Ronald's Autistic Friend". Thanks, Peter.

I have found a general rule about people throughout my life that I expect will hold true to the very day I get to leave it: people love to bring others down to elevate themselves. AS is just another way for an NT to feel superior to others, particularly because they (wrongly) associate it with genius, and genius makes them feel inferior if they are not a genius (ironically, it is the last thing they could possibly want because of other people like them, but that would be thinking about it, and thinking itself is a social negative!) It is a fantastic opportunity for them to get a big jump. Now, anyone who works harder than them and gains high proficiency is a skill is autistic. That forgives them the obligation of also working hard because, after all, they don't have "brain damage" that would allow them that skill, so back to the TV.

Since most people are looking for ways to make themselves feel better than you, I have learned the hard way to not offer anything up that will bolster that. On the flip-side, it is also safe for them to exhault the autistic person as well, now that they are no longer in competition with them. Steven Hawking is a brilliant man, quite possibly the most brilliant man of our age. They wouldn't make such a fuss about it without the wheelchair, however. Cruel, hard to say, but true. It is the same kind of thing that makes us say positive things at a funeral for a person who was a real jerk. Same with Einstein -- he was autistic, they say, to /marginalize/ him to the point where it is safe to /exhault/ him. Remember what he said about medicore minds -- he didn't say that because people were /nice/ to him. Note that there is no proof of him having AS at all.

On a related note, this is also why people will call great figures in history gay.

Really, most adults are just children faking it and think the same things they did back in high school, but are just no longer allowed to express it due to the legal system and find other ways to gorge their desires through things like becoming a manager, starting exclusive clubs, etc. I'm the member of a technology association, for example, and I've noticed it is just another way to set up the high school cafeteria mentality that was so successful for them back in the day when they felt they ruled the world.

Man, I slapped a bus as it almost hit me today - I know anger all to well and its exploding lately while either driving or shopping