Wish to be forgotten

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I wonder if I'm alone in this. Every Xmas or birthdays when my family (means parents, grandparent, brother and his family) ask me what I want, I tell them I want them to forget that I exist, at least for a little while. They think I'm just being my weird self and get me things like candies, clothes or gift cards anyway.

The thing is these people are my #1 stress source, they and I have little in common, so socializing with them is uncomfortable. Yet I have to because they're family. If they forget me for a while my anxiety disorder become more manageable. Whenever I'm feeling particularly run down or lousy I send email to everyone asking them not to call me for a few days. They usually do try to not call. I don't know why they wouldn't consider not calling me for a month as birthday present.

Does anybody else want to be forgotten and left alone?

Well, I've never wished to be forgotten per se, but I do rather hate the holidays for all the reasons you mention. Loud, noisy, festive people with whom I have very little in common and don't understand. I'd rather just stay home.

And I may get to this year, since I now live 2500 miles away from my family.

Well I also hate the noisy crowdedness of family dinners but I love my birthday dinner because I get to choose the meal and the cake and I like presents. I always ask for chocolates or food or a gift card to Chapters.

I also like all that, and since family for me has always meant my maternal grandparents and my parents plus me (and our pets), I've never had a problem with the noise level because these weren't noisy events at all.



Not by my family no, but by just about everyone else I know IRL, yes. When I leave my home, I just wanna be left alone.

I was always very happy that my b-day came in the summer holiday because then I didn't get any b-day song in school. Just the thought made me cringe.

I do not wish to be forgoten, I do wish I could just get my presents and go home, or they all go home.

Thats why I like boxing day, and the day after my birthday. I have all the new stuff to play with AND no people to get in my way.

I want presents then left alone.

I sometimes wish that, too....though I think in my case, being "forgotten" is a bit strong of a word. I think more of what I wish I could do is just sort of "fade..." you know, just sort of fade into the background and just be left to focus on what I want to focus on, insead of having other people fill my head with whatever it is THEY deem important. That, and I just feel super uncomfortable being amongst large groups of people.....I feel like I'm under scrutiny then.

Jeez, what do they all WANT from me??......

I've often wished I could move some place quiet where I didn't know anyone at all.

I've never been there, but I suspect that some place like Alderney would be nearly perfect.

I don't want or need presents. My family are selfish, loud, irritating and generally lots of trouble. Nobody throws a party for me, if I want one I have to organize everything, including clean the house and decorating, then feed everybody, accept the $30 they give me graciously, then clean up everything after they go home. We can't go out to eat as everyone has different dietary preference there's almost nothing we'll all eat. Occasionally my mom would show up before the party with a present with tags still on and not wrapped, ask "Do you want this or not? I can return this if you don't want it." "You want it? oh good, wrap it up yourself and put on the table then." Just looking at my brother makes me depressed. His daughter grates on my nerves all the time. I don't agree with him on almost any of his parenting choices and still have to pretend to be a nice aunt. Dad has lots of medical issues and likes to tell everyone about his problems in unpleasant details. Grandma says nothing but complaints, or try to guilt me into doing things for her. Nobody ask about my life, DH's or my children's. It's all me me me, look at me.

I think I should work on getting rich, then hire someone pretending to be me and deal with them.

Wow....your family does sound really unpleasant to be around....sorry about that.

I do