routine and panic

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This is a bit embarrasing, but I have grown accustomed now to checking wrong planet everyday, several times a day. It's become somewhat of a routine and a comfort zone bc i am familiar with it. Today, the school's server crashed and i was unable to check anything online, nothing, nada. Throughout the evening i began to feel panicky and anxious, nervy and undone. I really couldn't figure out what was getting me feeling so bad, thought maybe it was one of my mood swings or generally thinking too much. I noticed that i was constantly checking to see if the server was back, and after awhile it dawned on me that my near meltdown was caused by not being able to get online, mainly wrong planet this site has become a routine familiarity and maybe somewhat of an obsession, though i don't think i'd go so far to say that. I knew that's what was bothering me when the server came back and i got on here, i felt calm. Guess it was just having what i wanted to do taken away from me unexpectedly, without warning, and completely out of my control to change the situation. I hated clicking on internet explorer only to have it say server down and not be able to fix the problem. I felt helpless though i think that is a silly thing to get so worked up about.

I been in a similar situation myself. I was 17 and I would go to this bravenet forum and whenever the forum be down, I get anxious inside and bored and feel lost inside because soemthign I liked was gone and it was part of my routine I did. Now those thigns don't bother me anymore because it means have less things do to on the internet and I have more time doing other things.

well it wasn't wp's server that was messed up this time, it was my school's server at college, so i couldn't get online at all.

Normally, I am not bothered by routine change. In September 2005, however, I had to endure the ultimate test of an altered routine.

I had to evacuate from Hurricane Rita, which appeared to be approaching Houston (as a Category 5 storm, so my panic was justified greatly). My parents, my grandmother, my dog, and I took the steps to protect our property (especially keepsakes that were irreplaceable), and our lives.

It took 19 hours to reach our destination, which was a small town about 100 miles north of Houston. One of my mom's friends let us stay at her house in the country.

Eventually, Hurricane Rita weakened to a Category 3 storm, and made landfall 100 miles east of Houston, at the Texas-Louisiana state line.

The only problems we faced when we got home was that the cable was out for a couple of days, and gasoline was in short supply for about a week.

Tim

I think I know how you feel. Ever since I discovered this site about a week ago I haven't wanted to leave my computer; I spend most of the day reading this and other aspie sites. Funny thing is that up until then I was probably using the computer about half an hour of every day.

I find I have to have time on my Siamese cat site. I hate when I can't get on the Internet.

whenever my computer is down I panic, I can't stop stemming, my brain shuts down, it is the most horrible experience, I need my computer to maintain anything resembling my routine