Have you ever slipped back into your old traits?

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Not just aspie traits, it can be personality traits or other traits from other conditions you have.


I feel I have slipped back into my oldself. Two things have happened and I am still thinking about it and can't get it out of my head. My obsessive thinking.
This is a problem I had a lot when I was a kid and early adult. Things would drive me crazy and depress me until it was solved or until I got an apology but if that never happened, I was screwed it it take me a lot longer to get over it. I hate it.

When I left school and moved out into the country, I forgot how to interact with people [in a mechanical way]. Which wasn't a problem, as my anxiety was greatly diminished when I did leave.

So, I slipped back in social ability.

All of my traits are old, and I like them that way.

I seemed to have had my peak of "normalcy", now I feel like I am slowly slipping backwards, it is very distressing. I don't want to be that way again.

I couldn't agree more! In fact, ever since I've been diagnosed, I've felt it's legitimate to be myself, so I've been reuniting with my 5-year old self, and loving it. I used to be assertive, creative, self-confident and irreverent at that age, and enjoyed my hobbies. After 40 years of self-twisting to suit others, I'm glad to have slipped back to me!

I've been in a period of backsliding for the last few weeks.

I'm watching myself, and keeping track of my engagement (or more accurately, my lack thereof!).

I'm hoping my coping skills rebuild over the next few weeks/months.

I used to talk to people in my head, instead of answering them when they were talking in front of me. I noticed I did that last night.

I used to do that often in high school.

My mom says I do that, but I'm never aware of it. I think I really did speak Or maybe she's messing with me...

In the process of being diagnosed, it has really caused me to think back. Since being diagnosed as an adult I have to go back to my childhood. In some ways it has caused me to revert. But many of these oddites were mostly subconcious so it's hard to tell. Now that I'm starting to notice them it makes it seem that they are exaggerated, when I've just been doing them all along.

No, because I never lost them in the first place. I still feel like the same person I was as a kid.

I constantly revert to old bad habits if that counts?

I also have days where I just don't want to be an adult. I'm accused of being childish a lot by my partner. I can't say they are always wrong either.

I used to chronically avoid going outside for years. I don't believe it was agoraphobia, but if it makes sense I felt I didn't deserve the sunlight or enjoying a nice breeze, and that these pleasant sensations would only serve to make me feel worse. The same thought-patterns covered a huge array of other things too, such as deliberately avoiding the foods I liked. Back then, if I could have barricaded myself in a coffin and waited to expire I probably would have done so.
I sometimes still get the urge to utterly retreat, but I challenge these thoughts because they are at the end of the day illogical in the extreme. So long as an area isn't overcrowded with people, I do love being outdoors.