For the last 14 months, I've been going to therapy of all different sorts and been on many different medications. I was diagnosed with hfa in January last. So far no treatment or medication has helped in any small way.
My main difficulties are social anxiety and actual avoidance of individuals following rejection by them romantically. I also have very strong beliefs/principles regarding the aforementioned loyalty and trust.
Up until recently I blamed myself for most of the misfortune I have come across and on getting my AS diagnosis, I would have further blamed my condition.
However I have come to realise very recently that in alot of times in my life, I was not the one at fault when I got rejected or betrayed by others but it was those I had trusted and tried to be nice to who stabbed me in the back.
I don't want to sound really high and mighty about this but having discussed this with one of my therapists (who hadn't a great knowledge of AS), I posed the question that "in order for me to try to succeed in life, would I have to forget everything I stand for and believe in and drop my standards to how I see most NTs behaving"?
My therapist said I certainly shouldn't change my beliefs but couldn't answer how I move on in my present situation.
In the last 12 months, due to a short term relationship with a girl I barely knew, I physically avoid her at all costs as she rejected me and refused to give reason. I no longer talk to my best friend either who I've had since I was 5 also because of the girl I was seeing as he didn't think the break up with her was a big deal and I should just get over it. And finally I don't speak to my parents because they took the side of another girl who have clearly done wrong against me in my opinion
I'm sorry if I went on abit there but I just wanted to get some idea of how you feel I handled the situations. Would yous have done the same? And finally do trust and loyalty mean as much to all you guys as it does to mean?
Thanks for reading
Any feedback would be greatly appreciated
03 Nov 2013, 11:12 pm
