Tired, Annoyed & Depressed

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It has been a long time since I last posted here.
In that time, I've moved (and will soon be moving again). My diagnosis still does not exist, even though another test I took on another forum put me, once again, high into AS/ASD territory.
I am becoming stressed about it all as well.
Trying to get help for my problems is becoming daunting. There is a clinic up here that specializes in ASD, but so far they have not been helpful (they won't return phone calls, leading me to suspect that, like so many of the clinics, they are really set up for adolescent problems, not those of a fully grown adult).
And I try to explain to those places that do their best to help; my depression is a symptom of something else. Most antidepressants only flatten me out emotionally, and when I say flatten, I mean taking that wave form that is my emotional state and pulling it taut at a lower level. I'm not so sad anymore, but I really don't seem to care about anything else.
For the first time in my life, though, I can see how all these things come together. Why I stress out. Why my voice gets high pitched when I feel that I am not being heard (and am always accused of yelling). Why I get depressed. Why I slammed into that emotional wall more than a year ago.
It is as if these people don't seem to understand. I'm a human. A person. I just want answers. And they seem more elusive than ever.
To say that I am frustrated sort of scratches the surface.

I don't know about where you live, but where I am you need a referral from a general practitioner for a specific reason before a specialized clinic will see you. You could just not be going through the right channels.

Well, I'm here in the States, and sadly on medical assistance. My GP made a recommendation, but they will not accept my insurance. I spent the better part of the day making one phone call after another, and I have to tell you, it was the height of frustration. One clinic is now a methadone center (to wit I nearly snarked "then bloody well change your name!"). Another will only take walk-in evaluations (?) Monday through Friday between 11am-2pm, and not in the best part of a nearby town (a dangerous section, in fact).
The sad part? I'm in a state that has one of the best autism research projects, and is home to two Ivy League universities and their associated medical centers. The kicker? They don't take my insurance (i.e., government issued).
Going to try again tomorrow, but the fact that I am on here so late right now (2am my time) is indicative of how much this is troubling me. All I want are answers.

That's absurd that you don't have access to these services because of insurance. Is this Obamacare? I thought it would be more comprehensive than that.

This is state insurance. Yes, it is supposed to be, but they have made portions of it a veritable nightmare (for instance, I need to see a rheumatogist, but the only one I am allowed to see is at a large school run medical center in the center of the state). For my insurance, there are several tiers, and due to my current employment situation (non-existent), I am on the lowest. All ACA (Obamacare) was supposed to do was guarantee access and a certain degree of quality. All of my other medical problems are being handled nicely. I need to see specialist for another problem that appears to have cropped up, hence the rheumatologist. As for mental health resources, sure, I can visit plenty of LCSW's, but to get a diagnosis for anything more serious, I need to see a psychiatrist, and that is where the nightmare seems to have taken on a life of its own.
Sadly, it appears that my state's insurance has been like this for a few years, and from what I've been told, many here are having the same problem.
Still digging.

What about the place that you are moving to? Is it easier to get evaluated there?

Going to correct myself here.
The ACA does more than just guarantee access and some quality, It is also supposed to bring prices under control as well as tell the insurers how they are supposed to use the money's they receive (making sure that it is used for insurance and not great big bonuses).
Just tired, and very, very depressed.

The place I am moving to is potentially worse. And sadly, it is my home state. They are your typical so-called "Red State", and its healthcare prices are out of control.
I was hoping that my move up here would go better than this.
Not the case, obviously.

I am sorry you are feeling depressed. If you feel self destructive go to the emergency. Otherwise, hang in there and try to focus on anything you can think of that's positive.

Thanks for all who replied.
Going to take my final meds and try to sleep. I'll attack this again tomorrow.
And Ann... I'll be okay,

Namaste.