Feeling a little depressed and weird lately

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I have been a little depressed these past couple of days. It might have to do with the fact that ski season just ended for us and I would have liked to have skied much better than I did on our last day. But I felt a super flux of emotions hit me these past couple of days and I can't seem to identify them all. It's just been kind of depressing. I know it will pass and I am not worried about it, it always passes if I give it a little time to just work itself out.

I have also been more dyslexic than usual lately.

I was talking to my brother today too and as I was I felt very anxious and sad. That is all I could identify. I could not get further than that. I was rocking and stimming a bit and I was rubbing a piece of metal shelving as we were talking. I noticed that this was also one of those times that my rocking and rubbing of whatever smooth surface was within reach were actually more involuntary. I did did not realize I was doing it until I noticed that I was doing it. My speech was hindered as well. It was more monotone and more childlike and slow and nervous. It was chopped lacking in flow and fluidity and I struggled to find the words I wanted to say.

My husband also told me the other day the it seems like I don't have the ability to have empathy sometimes. I say sometimes because I know that there are times when I have a lot. But it seems to be selective. For instance, if someone is hurt or sick I can have empathy but if someone is struggling with certain aspects of a job or certain things that I am not good at like executive function, I can't seem to get empathy at all. I try but it does not seem to come.

I guess I'm just rambling a little here but if any of you can relate that would be nice. I am sure most of you can. I am still learning what it means for me to have Asperger's and trying to figure out what is Aspergian about me and what is just normal human nature. I just found out two years ago that I am on the Spectrum so I am still discovering many things about myself that relate to this. So I guess this thread is just to share what I was feeling and if anyone has any thoughts please feel free to share as well. Thanks.

Hey it's been a while it's nice to hear from you. I hope you feel better. Like you I have very strong emotions at least that what I've been told but I will never really understand them.

Hey Jen, Thank you for your response. I feel better already just hearing from my buddy Jen! I really do. It just put a huge smile on my face to read your post. Thank you!

I did not spend too much time on the computer since it was ski season. So you will probably see me a little more now in the off season!
You are always very encouraging!