James_Ladrang wrote:
I'd like to spend more time in my own world than I do. My family keep pulling me out of it to do things for them and I hate being interrupted, which means I don't always associate my own world as a good place because it feels like it's against the rules to be there. I am greatly conflicted as a result.
That is the hard part, to others it seems we are not connecting, but I am aware of whats going on, I am just occupying the part of my brain that is a tad obsessive.
About it being "against the rules", that is the skill of managing it as someone posted earlier. What has troubled me is that being off in my own world is associated with fantasy. as if I am entertaining myself. Generally I'm working out problems, analyzing things, playing back incidents to better understand what happened.
The only time I might let myself go into fantasy is on a long drive. Something about looking at passing landscapes gets me thinking about different lives. What would it be like to just wander off into a different way of being.
I'm not always the best company on long drives.