Over the past couple nights, I have struggled to sleep. My Seroquel XR started giving me a really nasty dysphoric side effect each of the past 2 nights. This morning, I woke up in emotioal pain, but also in anxiety, in if I did not move to get an application from public housing, I was doomed. Already twice, I asked them to mail the application to me, and twice they have not done that (after giving them a week). They said they would get back to me on the phone, but they did not. I've been in a lot of stress about my long-term disability (private) being continued and not being able to afford my house, as well as possibly having to total out my wrecked car (which nevertheless runs). I got confused by contradictory information made by the shop and the insurance company. I then began thinking about how I might have to be institutionalized and stuff.
In response to thinking about having to be institutionalized, the confusion, and all the changes and hard work, I began to weep bitterly for a couple minutes. But then I found myself thinking, with determination, that if the public housing wasn't following up as promised, then they're basically run by a bunch of liars! Why would I want to live at a place run by liars? I felt strengthened. However, I then noticed that there were flashing lights in my vision, which remained for 15 minutes.
The flashing lights seemed like they were on my right side, a kind of jagged line that was shaped in an arc and flashed with all the colors of the rainbow, though rather dully. This lasted for 15 minutes. I felt calmer and more confident, but also tired.
Has anyone had experiences like this?
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"You have a responsibility to consider all sides of a problem and a responsibility to make a judgment and a responsibility to care for all involved." --Ian Danskin
26 Aug 2015, 4:28 pm
