Hello All, Catching Up

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Been a while since I've been here.
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Typical fights in my life. Depression waxes and wanes with the tides, it seems. No real suicidal ideation, but I do have some resources in place. Anxiety is still an issue, to the point where a recent solo outing ended up being curtailed due to a panic attack. I suppose I can place blame on the agoraphobia as well.
One thing I have really begun to notice, in retrospect, is what role the ASD has had in my life since childhood. So many episodes were governed by this issue I was unaware that I even had. Another thing I noticed, and really should have noticed many years ago, was a feeling of affinity with the character of Raymond Babbitt in "Rainman". When I first saw the movie in 1988, I felt a little uneasy, but soon the movie grew on me. I had a chance to see it again recently, first time in almost twenty years, and noticed the "ticks", and then realized that I've had a bunch of ticks of my own going back to childhood.
It's still a learning curve, but knowing what I know now, things make a little more sense. I would have liked to have known all of this when I was younger, as it would have made some things a bit easier.

You're one year younger than me....and I like astronomy, too.

I wish I was a vagabond.

Why?

I'm thinking more metaphorically (in my mind) than actually.

I like the fact that I have a steady place of residence.

When I was nine years old, I once stole $20 from my father so I could buy a telescope. I got a haircut instead.

The "Vagabond" moniker used to be part of what I did; I'd set up a telescope in a random public space and let people get a look at the night sky. Name sort of stuck.

That was a nice thing to do.

It was exhausting at times, and I tended to shy away from really crowded areas. But it was fun.