Let me explain
MY YEARS RESOLUTION .... This year I will gently begin sharing by disclosing about my aspergers with freinds, audience and they can take me or leave me. I am feeling strong enough and want to be happy in my own skin..
at least this will give people a chance to support me or give me a bit of slack. (or stay clear!)..
I hope this helps with acceptance.
So I intend to start wearing some aspie T shirts and be more out and proud. There are few decent t shirts out there ( I know its been discussed before) I would be very proud to wear the WP alien as a symbol and acknowledgement of all the amazing community outreach going on here.
Why I have decided to do this:
I`m still struggling on through to cope with how my Aspergers reveals itself to others at work, bandmates, family.
I`m still hypervigilant about trying to do the right thing for NT `s in everyday social interactions (just so I keep my job, few freinds and basically survive really). But its really hard work as you all know.
At home my partner and I are growing closer all the time as she works hard with me and begins to understand my difficulties....positive improvements here... she`s great.
At Work ......as a teacher at school I made a lovely girl cry in one of my lessons from coming across too fierce again I think, and am scared it will get back to the head and I will be on a warning. (the girl did say the cartoons before xmas were boring though which I thought was rude, I suggested the class might prefer written work whereupon they all turned on her.....This upset her... I need to be more careful!) this is when I my aspergers leaks out... always worried I`ll lose my job.
Band: i have just reformed my band and have had the bass player pissed off already (6 weeks) and obviously annoyed with me and my `ways`
Have decided that its MY band and I need to fire him if he can`t get along with me,,, the band is for fun not stress.
Have decided to be brave and tell my other band members and even wear the occasional aspie T-shirt, lapel buttons ... even on stage...
I can`t hide it so I might as well get it out there and give folks a chance to accept me.
Or if not ... screw `em.
wish me luck!