What do you do when you can't access your special interest?

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Over the past few years, I've been obsessed with roleplaying. Tabletop RP (and the computerised equivalent) is the kind I prefer and I typically prefer roleplaying characters within a specific boundaries of traits and in settings of sci-fi and fantasy nature. However it has now been years since I've been able to participate in a tabletop RP within the boundaries of my anxiety and the last few months, social RP (RP with no dice rolls, stats, rules etc) has stopped being satisfying. This had led to me feeling so empty and pointless and without focus, life just seems to go by in an eventless blur. I can't focus on anything, I can't enjoy anything, I just sit around finding little distractions.

So I'm wondering... has anyone gone through long periods of time like this? And if so, how do you deal with it?

I don't really experience this because I am usually able to amuse myself my making things up in my head. Maybe you could search the Internet and see if you can find something that interests you.

When the server is down and I can't access my online RPG, I become extremely aggravated and I can't stop thinking about it.

I just switch to one of my other interests.

When I was a kid, I would just day dream about them or end up talking about it to different people. Then in 6th grade I started to write about them. Mom took my notebook away so I started writing in a different notebook. She couldn't stop my obsessions. She didn't want to hear them, I went to other people instead. I thought this was all normal then but the way I handled it was pretty smart but it also came to a point where it was OCD. It could have been the restriction that did it and the shame I was given for it so it caused me distress. I don't really have that problem anymore where I can't access them. If the internet goes out, I have my stories. I have back up. If I go on a trip, I am too busy to even focus on special interests or when I go out.

Back when we only had one computer when my husband had to have his laptop taken in, I couldn't use internet so I would have to find something else to do despite how lost and empty I felt and my husband was nice enough to give me the computer because he could feel distress. But now today you can go on the internet from tablet or phone or game console or Nook but if the internet goes out, I have back up and I can keep myself busy and do other things. It's not like the internet will be out forever.