My Diagnosis

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Just had my diagnosis confirmed..........ASD.
Not really sure how I feel about it though...
Anyone have any trouble with understanding the feelings after diagnosis

No, it was simply an official confirmation of what I was 99.999% sure of anyway.

Yes. It's a complicated thing.

On the one hand, your suspicion is confirmed and this explains so much.

On the other hand, you have crossed a rubicon. You can no longer tell yourself that you are just a bit eccentric and basically like typical people. And this realization may open all sorts of other things. You may have spent decades trying to tell yourself that you were not so different, or trying to suppress the somewhat fearful knowledge that you were and that this meant "the community" did not accept you.

You may feel that you can finally claim your right to be yourself as who you really are and at the same time feel a bit alienated from most of your species.

My experience of a late diagnosis was very positive, but with nightmare undercurrents.

I hope the next days and weeks go well for you.

Congratulations on achieving this breakthrough in self-knowledge.

For sure. To my immature ears, "aspergers" (I was diagnosed in the 90s) just sounded like name-calling to me. Decades later, I still don't entirely understand how to parse my relationship to "the spectrum" with a "I don't really think you have that" comment from my mother. I've also become much harder to spot in general over time as I improve socially. I'm sure there are subtle "tels" (and sometimes not-so-subtle) that someone may notice. I guess that's the downside to having differences that are kinda hidden. Self-doubt and feeling like you don't entirely fit into either "group" can be a bit isolating and confusing too.

But I realize there are bound to be other not-quite-NTs and half-aspies out there, so it's ultimately not so bad.

It's good that you know for sure now.