This summer, like all summers of the last several years, is going by so slowly! I have nothing fun to do. For the past several weeks, I've been spending most of my time in my room randomly browsing the Internet about my "restricted and stereotyped patterns of interest," reading Les Misérables, and occasionally drawing to pass the time. I've tried looking for a job to give me something to do, but I've had no luck despite applying at a bunch of places. One even seemed like a good possibility, but now he just seems to be giving me the run around: "I'll have my partner give you a call." My brother and sister keep taking the car, so I can't even really leave the house much. I have ridden my bike, too; but I have done much really memorable this summer; actually, I've done nothing memorable. It feels so wasted.
As for the forums and IRC channels, they haven't been sustaining my interest very well. You must understand I'd just like to get out of the house and enjoy life. I get very little pleasure from solitary activity; it's always more just passing the time. It's hard to motivate myself for that. Getting up even becomes a chore when there's no reason to get up. If only my social skills were better, I'd have friends and a girlfriend to hang out with.
17 Jul 2005, 2:17 pm
