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cfleischmann
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13 Oct 2017, 2:46 am

Song Name: Fix Me
Original Artist: 10 Years
Remix By: Carly G. Fleischmann

Internal notes: This song was written shortly before I was hospitalized recently. I have been through a lot of trauma and abuse throughout my life. The most damaging of which occurred shortly after I turned 18 when trying to go to the police to report abuse that was continuing to happen to me from 10 years prior. The police, the abuser, and even some members of my family wanted me to suffer in the silence of not seeing the abuser held accountable for his actions. They wanted that silence to be so overwhelming that I would be driven mad by it. Now that I have found peace and comfort in the silence of being nonverbal, certain members of the aforementioned groups want to try and take that away from me by trying to force me to be verbal and communicate in the way they want me to. I say in this song “don’t try and fix me”. As to say “I am not broken in any way and just because I am nonverbal doesn’t mean that I need to be ‘fixed’ because I am doing what is best and most comfortable for me”. I feel that this song can also apply to autism in general because from what I have observed, some families and even school systems try to “fix” the autism diagnosis and make the person “normal” when they are fine just the way they are and don’t need to be fixed or altered in any way.



It’s taken a lifetime to find myself, a lifetime of abuse and pain. All the hurt and shame from my past, turns to sand, and fades in the wind. Crossing lines, abuse and hate; I’m taking back what is mine. I’m fine with who I am, found peace in the silence, I’m right where I should be; don’t try and fix me. I’m fine with who I am, found peace in the silence, I’m right where I should be; don’t try and fix me.

So lost for so long to find myself; I failed to conform, I’m out of place. Crossing lines, abuse and hate; I’m taking back what is mine. I’m fine with who I am, found peace in the silence, I’m right where I should be; don’t try and fix me. I’m fine with who I am, found peace in the silence, I’m right where I should be; don’t try and fix me.


I’m fine with who I am, found peace in the silence, I’m right where I should be; don’t try and fix me.

I’m fine with who I am, found peace in the silence, I’m right where I should be; don’t try and fix me.

I’m fine with who I am, found peace in the silence, I’m right where I should be; don’t try and fix me.

I’m fine with who I am, found peace in the silence, I’m right where I should be; don’t try and fix me.


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13 Oct 2017, 3:05 pm

Does 'REG' mean something?



cfleischmann
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13 Oct 2017, 3:19 pm

Lumi wrote:
Does 'REG' mean something?


Yes, “REG:” is short hand at my volunteer job for “REGarding:”

Hope this helps. For a more thorough history of the prefix, feel free to send me a PM.


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13 Oct 2017, 5:10 pm

cfleischmann wrote:
Lumi wrote:
Does 'REG' mean something?


Yes, “REG:” is short hand at my volunteer job for “REGarding:”

Hope this helps. For a more thorough history of the prefix, feel free to send me a PM.

Thank you for explaining this! I’ve been wondering for some time.