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This is a difficult one to explain, but i would really love to know if anyone else has experienced anything similar.

When I was a kid, when going to sleep i'd get strange visuals.... like in my head. As if i could see the walls of my bedroom while my eyes were shut. Except that if i was feeling content in a way, the visuals would be really small, petite and neat... almost like everything had a smooth finish without any flaws at all. And that was comforting, and it made me feel easy inside.

But if i was feeling angry, or frustrated or something was bothering me, the visuals would be huge, obstructive and way oversized, very intimidating. It made me feel uneasy, and kind of scared.

It's difficult to describe the visuals, but in one way or another they would depict my bedroom. Like a chair, the wall ect... very abstract. I never told anyone about it, because i didn't know how to explain it without them actually seeing/experiencing it for themselves. It lasted all through my childhood, all the way up until my late teens. On extreme rare occasions, i've experienced it as an adult.

Anyone else ever had anything like it?

Not your thing but
This used to happen all the time when I was younger, now I have to concentrate to do it but I still can.
When I shut my eyes it was like this tunnel network. Dimly seen, as if it was very dark. I would be falling through them. I comtrolled my firection by twitching my eyes. Just falling, endlessly. If I tried to I could sort of reverse gravity a little. I get legitimately dizzy if I start going through a spinning loop and I can sort of feel my body be affected. It sort of feels like being on a roller coaster, when its going through a loop. Never told anyone.
Ah, the time spent happily dozing through this... mind world? Idk what to call it.
Thats probably the closest I have come to what you described.

When I go to bed I often reach a state in between being awake and asleep, where I start hallucinating (half-dreaming). Sometimes it's images and sometimes it's sounds. Might be something like that?

Can be sleep paralysis

I've had something similar several times but rather than the visuals being bigger or smaller , I've felt that my body has got bigger or smaller - similar to Alice in Wonderland syndrome but usually with my eyes closed or in the dark.

Oh! I get that too! As soon as I start feeling like I'm shrinking I know I'll be asleep soon. I very rarely feel like I'm getting bigger, but it has happened and it makes me feel weird. Not at all like the 'safe and content' feeling I get from feeling smaller.

It is a weird feeling but never felt 'safe and content' ( not distressing either )