I have come to the conclusion that AS is a very emotionally painful problem to have. I hurt myself and all the people that I care about(and many that I don't) over and over again, no matter how hard I try, my best will never, ever be good enough. Now that's a depressing thought. What I want is relationships. I want friends, but I can't get them. My whole life I'll always be trying to catch up to other people, never getting what I want and always pushing people away when I want to pull them closer. If you come up with a solution, I want to know