What Is Normal?

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Well. Put it this way. From the descriptions of masking, I know I mask. I often think "If only they knew the real "Me".
Now something along these lines I can say about how my mind works. I think I have an inner mind which works in deep thougt and works really well in picture form. In picture form it is incredible. Is only recently I have realized how well I think in this way. In school so many times I would be told off for daydreaming! If only the teachers could see my thoughts! Converting conversations the teacher gave into a visual land where I would then explore. It was if I could step into my mind and explore the scene!
Now outside of this inner mind I seem to have an automatic operating and processing system where I can think automatically and do things without thinking in this area of my mind. The issues I get are when something I am thinking about gets sent to rhe inner "Visual" mind tomprocess things and then needs to go back to the outer mind before it comes out in an answer. This takes more time, so I am not normally a quick thinker. I am however a very deep thinker. I do not know how my outer mind actually thinks. Lets say I want to add up in my mind. If I add up 8+8 I will use my quick thinking automatic outer kind and straight away the answers there. 16.
Now lets say I am adding up 8+6. What happens to my mind? Well, I will either add 8+8 and then take off two in my outer mind, or I will delve deeper into my inner mind and work it out like spots on the dice in visual form. In primary schoop we had cards with spots on so we could add up, and my visual mind uses these methods to count. I explained this to my mother and she said it was a slow method. I said "Yes, but I have always thought like that!"
Now every time I transfer well thought information from my inner mind to my outer mind it takes time. If I am able to use my outer mind alone, "BAM" the answers there.
Is this how normal people think? What is normal anyway?

It is interesting.
I have had another two thoughts. On the one hand I often enjoy delving into my own little world in model railways where I take great eelight in dreaming up designs ready to build them. For example, I can use my inner visual mind to relax in and look at what materials I have and how they can go together to make a nice scratchbuilt narrow gauge model railway waggon. I can spend a couple of years on a single idea before I start to build it. I can take apart and assemble components in picture form and alter them.. And if when I do try to make it and somethinb doesn't work, I go back to my inner kind to re-evalueate things so I can work round it.
Now at the same time, as I have spent so much of my life masking (Even though I didn't know what it was called until recently), I don't really like artificial worlds like a cartoon film or a kellidoscope. It makes me feel claustrophobic. I always am on the look to break out into the real life world where I can be free. I mean... Let me explain where I am at the most free...
Picture a beach with not many people around, then a cliff walk witn distant views... I look below and see the sea. I am not near the edge where it is dangerous, but the walk is back from the edge... And the breeze of the wind coming up at me. The sights small and large... The smells and the feelings of the wind blowing at me... I am free! Not hemmed in by people, but looking and feeling and touching... At one with Gods Creation! I am free.
That to me is freedom. The complete opposite to a cartoon film of the same event where I can only use my visual and hearing senses. I feel confined and squashed... A manmade folly. This world is almost like torture to me. Turns me inwards. Not outwards...

Yet with my trains I can relax. It is thoughts of how I can use my mind to bring things into reality. I am using creativity the way God intended it, and I have a freedom within it. Now this freedom is limiting if I bought all my kodels ready made. I can still create a lovely little world. But I am not breaking out like I am when I scratchbuild. Scratchbuilding is three dimentional while ready made models are two. (If that makes sense?).

"Now lets say I am adding up 8+6. What happens to my mind? Well, I will either add 8+8 and then take off two in my outer mind"

I do that too

My thought process...

{6,8} : : {-2,14,48,0.75,1679616}

Addition? Oh, that's the second one.

In order: -, +, x, ÷, and ^ (exponent)

Normal is so boring

When presented with a set of two or more numbers, my mind produces many solutions from which to choose, depending on the context.

I could have added "r = 10, Θ = 53.13°", but that might have been too complex.

I have a little electronic box that shows me the solution. It runs on solar power... or possibly my failures. Either way, it's never let me down.

All of you who can effectively work with numbers are amazing to me.

Normal people are those I keep studying with interest, but can never quite figure out. Like my in-laws. They just mailed a huge blanket to my son as a high school graduation gift. He's 17 and not getting married. Why would he need a big blanket for graduation?