Moving Swings and Loud Noises.

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When I was younger (And I still get the same today but less so), if my Mum took me to the play park and a child was on a swing I would be happy enough, but if the child jumped off the swing and the swing was moving where no one was on it, I would go buzzurk and would do all I could to stop the swing from moving. I remember once when on a windy day I had a nightmare of a time at the playpark trying to stop all the swings from moving! It seemed like torture to me! I don't know why.
There was also a big rocking horse which would take 12 children (I think there were either eight or twelve seats) and I would do all I could to stop this from moving if no one was on it, and the big heavy roundabout was the same.
While I enjoyed playparks, I also found it an aweful place to have these moving things I would feel compelled to try and keep still.
My Mum said when I was very young I used to get most upset when I saw cows, as though I loved animals and going to see them, I would want to stop their tails from moving. (I still love animals!) I used to get in a right state when they would swish their tails!
With certain things now I am older they no longer effect me. However, power tools... I don't like it when a power tool is still moving after it is switched off. I have a compulsion to stop it from moving. For example a circular saw.
Another subject. Sudden loud noises I would hate, or just loud noises. I am ok if I use a hammer, but for years I hated being next to someone else using a hammer. I hated sudden loud noises. One of the worst nights of the year as a child was bonfire night. (I also am nurvous around fire and hot things!) I still don't want to be anywhere near fireworks. I am soo glad I am living on a hill with few houses around where I can see distant fire work displays without being anywhere near them.
I do use soldering irons but I am very careful while soldering. It took me years to pluck the courage up to use them. Despite efforts from my father and brothers I never have learnt to weld. I can see the huge benefits from it, but I am soo nurvous to go near with the sudden hot sparks... I just can't do it which is a shame as I could make soo many things if I got myself over this fear!

Are what I describe above related to autism or are they my character?

Must be just me!

It's impossible to say, Mountain Goat. Even if you are autistic those traits could be random, or they could be part of your autism. In my assessment there was a section of the developmental history which asked about childhood fears and phobias, but it also stands to reason that many children who aren't on the spectrum experience fears as well. In my opinion it seems like you had a desire for predictability or sameness (e.g., not wanting inanimate objects to move at random, and not wanting the surprise of a cow's tail moving), but only a professional could assess whether that's related to autism for you.

Thank you for the reply. I met someone today who has an issue which is similar to what I get, though not quite the same. But very similar. It has something to do with an adrenal gland. So I could be this other issue which is causing these energy loss type things. If it is there is nothing anyone can do. I am caught in a loop where I am not officially ill but I really struggle to work. I hate struggling like this. If it is nothing to do with asperges and the traits are just traits, then I am back to square one and have no where to turn. I can't see a way out as I was told that this gland does not show up on any tests that it is an issue (I have been tested for all sorts of things and everything always comes up clear) so I will find that I have no help. So, if I am assessed and it is not that, then I have no where to turn.
I am really struggling working at the moment. Everything takes soo much effort. How come no one can see that I struggle? I really dread if they extend the temporary work another month and they seem to be giving me extra hours already. It makes things so difficult to drag my way through the day. Yesterday I had a job walking from the car park to the store and then it was an effort to stand up. I can't let it show. It looks like I am complaining.
But without work I don't keep a car, and without a car as it is a few miles of walking to the bus stop... It is a vicious cycle as my Mum does not drive. And she can no longer walk back up the hill. When I have not been able to keep a car on the road life is soo much more difficult.
If things come to an impossible situation I juat have to tackle things head on. Make my peace etc..
But for now I live in hope. That when I feel like this in future years something can be done so I won't need to struggle.

Must be optomistic.

I must calm down and refocus. I am alive. This is a good start.

Sorry. I am going in questioning loops. Getting a bit pressurized. Work tomorrow. Sigh! It will be ok.