Coping with meltdowns

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Sorry i just need to vent.

Ive had the day from absolute hell today and it has caused me to get really annoyed with myself and other people.

I had to take my pet to get checked out for fleas because we seem to have a problem with them at the moment - My mum has some really bad bites from them so we are having to get the council in to get fumigate the flat on Tuesday - I knew for a fact that my chinchilla did not have them but i took her to make sure, and stop family turning around and saying it was her that was causing the problem. We cant have her in the flat while they are doing it so i asked relatives to maybe look after her for a few hours while they do it - Its not like she needs to be walked or fed or anything but it was met with cant u put her in garage. Our garage is damp and full of spiders and the only thing we put in there is the car.

I just felt that they were blaming me as per usual, not so much my mum but my grandparents. It just comes down to the fact that i feel like a complete and utter failure - I dont have a job, i cant seem to cope with new situations when they come down, then my anger comes out and i act like a child because i dont know how to cope with the problem.

It didnt help also that i saw they guy that I had a brief relationship at the beginning of the year till I worked out eventually that he was just using me. - I saw him a week ago as well for the 1st time in 8 months and i thought I coped quite well then but i realise that i am not over the fact that i was so pathetically nieve to ever trust him. I just didnt know how to read him properly or show my feeling properly.

Also i have been so good at trying not to take my anger out on myself ie self harm - I thought i was getting better at not doing it but when things get on top of me i rant and rave, shout things i shouldnt and i dont know how to get out of this rediculous problem.

Does anyone else have this problem and how do I stop it??????

Sorry about the rant but I dont have anyone else to talk to about it.

Suz

doesn't living at home with loads of other people make things impossible? People with ASD's are notoriously bad at communal living... Ranting & Raving is one stage better than self-harm, so don't be too hard on yourself for that. Hang in there there's a couple of girls that'll be online soon that'll offer you much better advice that me...