anyone ever wish they were "more autistic"?

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what i mean is does anyone ever wish they were considered at lower functioning level ten you actually are.

sometimes i feel that way. iyts because life is so stressful and i can feel my self not being all aware and stuff thats not what i mean i just cant put in words i wish i could put a diagram here because that how im seeing these concepts in my head right now

but what im trying to say is im feeling "on the border" "my own little world" right now and im strugling to stay on the in the outside world because i have stuff i need to do

well if people saw me as "autistic" then they would just leave me alone and i wouldnt be expected to get everything done. or i wish i could just pause time for a few hours or days or whatever so if i do go into my own little world at least i wont be wasting time.

Yes, I feel this way sometimes as well. Often I wish I could just put everything on hold and go off in my own little world for a while.

I just wish I was a savant

I see what you're driving at, but I'd have to say no to that. I enjoy my own little world, but it gets boring there after too long. What in particular do you want to escape from? Other people are only stressful if they make you anxious. If you can be at peace with who you are and your worth as a person, it's easier to shrug off the people who give you grief. What do they know about you, anyway? What are they basing things on? Very little. Life is too short to tiptoe around other people.

I see that you are 17 years old. I am 27 now and I can tell you life at 17 sucks compared to life at 27. I found myself wishing I could have some excuse to not join, not communicate, not be expected to care... but what I found is that once I removed myself from school and from my non-understanding parents, life became a freaking cake walk.

The "real world" where you have to pay your own bills and be your own support seems to be scary to NTs (hah all their movies and lots of their music seems to be about that), but it is the first time in my life that I have just really flourished.

I honestly can't believe how awesome life is from age 20 (when I dropped out of college) onwards. Especially compared to the previous 19 years of bullsiht.

I'm just saying, it isn't your imagination, it sucks to be 17, anyone who tells you different is trying to sell you a cellphone.

Excellent post, shaggy.

The grass isn't always greener.

functioning level wouldn't make a person more autistic as such,the lower it gets the more it affects self help skills,abilities etc rather than an increase autistic traits.
would hate to be lower functioning,was closer to LFA than MFA when younger and would not like to go back to it.
the 'refuge in own world' trait of autism isn't great to have when constantly going back into it,and people around try to bring back out of it,that sort of 'intervention' is a sudden awakening,a rushed confrontation by reality.
how parents and teachers used to intervene with this years ago was akin to torture.

auties don't always have it 'easier' as such,especially as adults,the exceptions are only with those who are moderately-severely ret*d,perhaps just be mute/non verbal-definitely a way to be under expected of doing anything-unless trained and educated,support staff and others assume are ret*d when non verbal,in last place,was dragged around by the wrist by agency workers who assumed am was ret*d because am was NV,same with the fulltime NV LFAers there,treated like they can barely lift a finger to do anything because they cant speak.


Ravenclawgurl,
tell those around self about the pressures,the struggles,the challenges,don't let them not know,that's probably worse than anything because it'll just make things get worse putting up with it.
they should be better accomodating.

Looking back and my childhood (a long time ago), I suffered enough at the hands of bullies for being as weird as I was. I would not have welcomed any additional grief.

Now, I am pleased with how I turned out. The bullying forced me to turn inward which served me well in graduate school and, even now, as a college professor.

My only regret was that I was diagnosed with childhood schizophrenia, but that was the standard diagnosis for anyone on the autism spectrum in the 1960s. There wasn't even a concept of an autism spectrum back then. In the DSM-I and DSM-II, autism was only treated as a symptom of childhood schizophrenia (in children) and schizoid personality disorder (in adults).

No, I don't ever wish I were more autistic. I don't think my life would be easier in any way if I were, and I don't think people would leave me alone more. Well, not in a way I'd appreciate. I'm pretty sure they'd leave me very alone. I function well enough to function. I have extremely high stress dealing with everyday life though.

I feel like this sometimes. It's like I'm autistic enough to be considered weird but not autistic enough that people know I'm autistic.

Hell no!

Yes and no.

In some ways, yes, because then perhaps people would realise I had a problem. Right now, people just see me as plain weird which I hate! I hate people thinking I'm just weird. I'm not weird, I have a condition and there is a reason for why I am the way I am. Right now, I'd rather be more Autistic if it meant people would finally understand me and stop seeing me as just "weird".

At least if I was more Autistic, people could be reassured that I wasn't some alien. People seem to be comforted by things they know or know of and relax when they realise that there is a recognised condition for the way a person behaves.

On the other hand, I have enough problems as it is right now with Asperger's, I don't think I'd want to increase them. And deep down, I know that even if I was more autistic, people wouldn't be kinder, they'd probably just be scared of me, because they are now, simply because I'm different and they don't understand me.

I'm kind of low-functioning for someone with AS, so I don't wish to be any lower than I already am.

I'm the exact same way.