Do you ever..? (a random collection of my thoughts)

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Feel exasperated at being overly sensitive to certain events that others just seem to brush off?

Feel that you are lacking control of your life as a result of this oversensitivity, that the only way to keep control of your moods is by cocooning yourself away from the variation of day to day life?

Dislike the idea of being labelled uncaring or disinterested in others welfare, as a result of lacking in the ability to intuitively predict what others are thinking?

Resent the idea of "lacking empathy", when you feel your own concern and compassion towards others is seemingly higher than most "normal" individuals?

Have trouble improving and maintaining self esteem, constantly feeling life is too overwhelming for you to sustain your energy, ideas and interests? That you will never know or reach your potential, achieve your dreams or contribute to society in a full capacity?

Have trouble projecting and maintaining a consistent outward identity, feeling like you are a social chameleon?

Find that altruism, or interacting with others by being an unusually good listener, or showing a high level of concern, without the intention of manipulation or personal gain, is one of the few enjoyable ways to interactive with others?

But wonder if that notion is really your actual good nature, or if it's just a ploy to improve your sense of self worth?

Feel as though you are able to have a profound, intellectual interest in certain areas of life, but also have a real lack of understanding in other aspects, which is markedly different from your intellectual peers?

For example - feeling more comfortable listening to commercial/pop music, or watching TV; than say listening to "higher brow" alternative or classical music, or going to the theatre, opera etc - stuff that the more "executive" people do?.. despite being able to uphold rich conversations on philosophy, computing, trivia etc.

Strongly identify with many of the traits of AS (or HF etc), but have doubts to the validity of a specific diagnosis with such a large, varied, or vague set of criteria? That is to say, where exactly do you fit in all of this, and who, if anyone, can you truly understand or be understood by?

Feel as though typing bullet points, in what should be a flowing chain of thought, should not have taken 45 minutes to compose, or needed to be proof read four times before you are happy that it is (hopefully) discernible enough to read!

Well, if you can identify with any of this please let me know, I will add to this when I can think of more to ramble on about.

Feel exasperated at being overly sensitive to certain events that others just seem to brush off?

Yes. there's been occasions where i've mentioned something again later and everyone else is like "what?" coz they've forgotten all about it

Feel that you are lacking control of your life as a result of this oversensitivity, that the only way to keep control of your moods is by cocooning yourself away from the variation of day to day life?

Yeh

Dislike the idea of being labelled uncaring or disinterested in others welfare, as a result of lacking in the ability to intuitively predict what others are thinking?

YES! God that's annoying

Resent the idea of "lacking empathy", when you feel your own concern and compassion towards others is seemingly higher than most "normal" individuals?

Yes. That is also realy annoying

Have trouble improving and maintaining self esteem, constantly feeling life is too overwhelming for you to sustain your energy, ideas and interests? That you will never know or reach your potential, achieve your dreams or contribute to society in a full capacity?

All the time...

Have trouble projecting and maintaining a consistent outward identity, feeling like you are a social chameleon?

I did. Until i stopped socialising with practically everyone apart from those who understand

Feel as though you are able to have a profound, intellectual interest in certain areas of life, but also have a real lack of understanding in other aspects, which is markedly different from your intellectual peers?

Yeah. That's one of the major problems at the moment

For example - feeling more comfortable listening to commercial/pop music, or watching TV; than say listening to "higher brow" alternative or classical music, or going to the theatre, opera etc - stuff that the more "executive" people do?.. despite being able to uphold rich conversations on philosophy, computing, trivia etc.

Haha yeah!

Strongly identify with many of the traits of AS (or HF etc), but have doubts to the validity of a specific diagnosis with such a large, varied, or vague set of criteria? That is to say, where exactly do you fit in all of this, and who, if anyone, can you truly understand or be understood by?

Yes. Definately

yes, yes yes and yes

Yes, mostly.

I'm particularly interested in what you said about being a "social chameleon", as I have found it possible to fake my way into various groups. I was even a sorority girl! Always it was a facade, though. I suppose since I didn't really fit in with any group, I got used to putting on whatever mask I needed.

I have a few more randoms..

When watching a movie that really catches your attention, do you feel almost surreal afterwards, especially if you've been in the enclosed darkness of a cinema, only to then step out into bright light and jostling people?

Do you ever find your mood can shift markedly throughout the day, in the space of a few hours, or even minutes, much more so than is typical?

Do you find that daily events, whether they are foreseen by you or not, can have a strong effect on your perception of self and your "position" within society?

Do you struggle to make sense of your fluctuating moods and emotions, that there seems to be factors beyond your control when it comes to self empowerment?

Do you ever wonder if there is something that you might be allergic too, that is responsible for changes in your energy, concentration levels etc, but you can't make sense of what it might be, and there is no medical evidence to back it up as far as you are aware?

But do you then question, if some (or all) of the above just act as subconscious excuses, for not enforcing the change you (seemingly) need?

basically yes to all of that

I enjoy a wide variety of music, but tend to prefer upbeat and happy music of all genres. I dislike morose music of any kind, whether Classical or popular.

Yes to all that stuff you said.

About music: I like music from almost every genre. I also like listening to music in foreign languages that I don't speak, particularly Irish and Japanese. It allows me to invent my own story for the music. Also I like hearing the sounds of the language itself.

makes sense