What is WRONG with me? Why do I freak out?

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This is NOT flattering to me, and I don't do it all the time-usually I hardly ever do it, but I've done it twice in the last week.

Tonight my mom and I got cell phone bills that were clearly bogus (calls supposedly placed from another state, etc.) the guy with the cell phone company claims you can roam on towers in another state, etc.

Doesn't matter, point is I know I'm being lied to and I just freaked out. I'm having adrenaline go through me, I'm loudly going "THAT IS NOT POSSIBLE" to the guy my mom is talking to, and I start pacing around and start shaking my hands...she's been off the phone for an hour now, but I'm still shook up about it, now mostly because I think I'm a freak because I reacted so badly/weirdly.

Earlier this week after I got home from a psychologist appointment that went nowhere, I eventually got so freaked out I was pacing all over the place and ended up swiping stuff off of a ledge and screaming for an explanation about what happened, etc. I'm embarrassed about my reaction, and I feel like I must be just a total freak.

I don't know, just wondering what on Earth is wrong with me that I sometimes react like that. I mean it is rare, but it happens.

When I get like this, it usually means that I haven't been getting enough magnesium.

Can you tell when the feelings are coming on?
Are there clues you recognize?

There is a FEDERAL LAW limiting the rsnge of cell phones!! ! Analog phones are allowed the biggest range, and they are like 5-10 miles!

If you reach a tower well outside of that range, the phone company BROKE THE LAW, and could end up getting fined. They provided you with illegal equipment, violated licenses, and fradulantly charged you. It is rare that they are prosecuted for it, but it HAS happened before, and fines could be substantial!

Little Mom and pop shops, for example, used to sell Class A computers. It is illegal to operate a Class A computer in a residential area. Class A computers could be cheaper, and faster, but generated enough RFI that they could cause excessive interference on radios and TVs.

http://www.fcc.gov/oet/ea/procedures.html

TODAY, most computers probably qualify as Class B, but that was certainly NOT the case in the 1980s.

If the state border is outside of the 10 mile range, ask them HOW the phone could even transmit that far, and why there was no nearer cell. If they give you too much trouble, call the FCC!(Excessive power, and cell license violation) The PUC(Limiting access to public utilities and misuse of E.D.) and FTC(Unfair business practices.) might ALSO be interested.

BTW you should have heard how I reacted when the airlines lied to me, etc.... I was the guy that got REALLY upset.

I don't know. It sort of happens before I realize it's happening

CrushedPentagon, do you know what magnesium does or why it could cause this kind of thing? I think that thing on Monday has me more on edge and let it happen again, I guess.

2ukenkerl, that's a great point about the legality of the situation! I hadn't even thought of that, I was was just thinking technically it made no sense, but yeah, it wouldn't even be legal!

Perhaps your anxiety level is quite high, and these two events pushed you over the line and you hit fight or flight mode.

Magnesium by itself doesn't do much, but it is a key part in MANY metabolic processes! One, for example, is changing protein to amino acids, and making tryptophan. Messing with that will make you more sensitive, irritable, etc... and less calm. Who knows, maybe that is one reason I don't overreact so much anymore.

Yeah, it probably is high. I've got OCD, and that's an anxiety disorder I guess, so that right that would point to it too. I don't enjoy anxiety



I'll have to check if my vitamin has any magnesium. I actually just started taking it again last week (I couldn't find the kind I take for the past year), and I had a really good week-it would be weird if that's why! But this week has been weird thanks to that doctor's appointment.

I freak out. I'm usually very easy-going, but I freak out and loose my temper pretty badly, over the stupidest crap. One of the biggest things is if I can't find something I'm looking for (which happens a lot). I throw temper tantrums kind of like a little kid, and grind my teeth and sometimes I even yell at the top of my lungs, even at work (which is pretty damn embarassing). It's like this pure rage comes in me. Although, I am proud to say I have never, ever in my life raised my hand to another human being in anger. The prospect of violence sickens me, but I like to destroy objects, like slamming my fist down really hard on my desk, etc. Been this way pretty much since I was a child.

I lose stuff constantly too (my mom dosen''t even get worried when I lose my Palm TX anymore, since I usually lose it once a day anyway). It throws me off and is stressful, but thankfully I don't get TOO freaked out anymore, not like I did with these test results this week.

Your description sounds similar to me, unfortunately

I always hear about these "meltdowns". Is what we're doing this similar? Or something totally different?

I am SO glad it doesn't happen much because I hate acting like that, I feel horrible afterwards.

Actually sounds more like a "mini" meltdown. A full blown meltdown can destroy rooms... or more. Stress, being tired, lots of things contribute, but yeah, it's basically a trigger of the fight or flight mode, and dumps a HUGE amount of adrenaline into your system. The "low" as that wears off probably contributes to your feeling bad, too. The key for me was to recognize the warning signs and take steps to calm down. Take myself out of the situation, walk outside, think about naked women... whatever it took.

I frequently have mini-meltdowns....esp. when i am not self-medicating for them....like the other day when I started crying because of a silly ghost mural and it was like the end of the world...It triggered a state of panic and agitation that did not go away for several hours....Even with all the anti-anxiety stuff I take.

Most of my melt-downs are "mini"...as long as I keep taking the Omegas....otherwise I can have some that will affect me for days...

It is important to breathe (hard to think about...I know)....and to be able to escape.....Maybe take chamomile pills or drink some chamomile tea...just the smell of chamomile helps me center myself...

I was so exhausted by my mural freak-out that hours later, when I was finally able to calm down, I was like a useless puddle of ooze.....

I hate being this way...now I can look at the mural and not freak out...but my initial reaction...it seems so unneccesary in retrospect...but at the time, it seemed beyond my control....and it was not just the mural....all of this other mind gunk that i was having a hard time processing seemed sorta channeled through my negative reaction to the mural...
I often have a hard time processing my emotions about things...and alot of it comes out during my melty episodes.

Often, for me, it seems like the things that cause my mini-meltdowns are really just the trigger, or the icing on the cake and it is really a buildup of things that I haven't been processing well...(sorry for being repetative)...
Even the episodes that seem to come from out of the blue....

The triggering of fight or flight mode and tons of adrenaline definitely sounds like my experience. I actually was aware of the adrenaline this past time while it was happening, but I guess I don't know it's coming on fast enough. I can't stop it or calm down while it's happening and I hate that.

So far I've wrecked a Tivo remote, a Palm, and my carbon monoxide detector this past time...but not a whole room. If that's a mini-meltdown I hope that's as bad as I ever get, and thankfully it's not too often. Just admitting that on here I feel like people must think I'm a monster.

There is nothing wrong with you. You're just wired a little different to the majority of people. if you don't let off steam day to day then you'll boil over.

Being aware of how tense you are is important. I have only just realised how much tension I naturally carry day to day, and now I focus regularly on burning it off so it doesn't build up to a meltdown. Having a bad back helps as people don't think it's weird if I stand up and start stretching in a meeting.

If I feel the tension or anxiety level building, I excuse myself go to the toilet and then jump up and down on the spot while shaking out all the tension from my upper body. I shadow box and I head-bang a bit (which usually makes me giggle at myself) and then I can go back in to the meeting with a serene head.

MAGNESIUM

My episodes are very similar to what you describe. Pacing around, yelling, not usually breaking stuff though (not for many years). Often over something small. I have done it over a phone bill. Yes, they are rare and tend to come in cycles. Then someone told me that a magnesium deficiency can make some people poor at handling stress. From the link above, you can see that there are many tasty foods high in magnesium.

wow...magnesium......I need to pay attention to magnesium..this might be my problem...maybe i would not feel so compelled to take so many supplememnts if I just took magnesium.....

Of course this means adding magnesium to all the other stuff i take...i have a cal mag zinc supplelment I always forget about....