I am afraid to go to school.
blackcat
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I was supposed to be at school over two hours ago. I can't make myself go. Mo mom says I need to go because I may already have too many absenses but I can't. I hate walking into a class late and haveing the aweful silence and staring as I walk into the room. Any advice???
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I feel your pain. I went through this time and time again with school, and it still happens to me at work from time to time. I'd rather miss the day entirely than come in late and have everyone comment on it. It makes me feel paralyzed.
I can only offer you two pieces of advice. The first is that going in late won't be as bad as you imagine. Will it draw a few looks and comments? Sure. But if you miss the whole day, tomorrow people will ask you where you were, and you'll have to make something up.
The second is... as bad as going in late feels now, it is nothing compared to what will happen if you DO miss too many days. Generally the school will request a meeting with you and your parents regarding your missing days. You'll be put on the spot, and a decision will be made as to whether or not you've missed too many days to pass your grade. It sucks, TRUST me on this. Go in if you possibly can. Spend the whole time staring at your shoes if you have to, but go in. Not going in will be worse in the long run.
Good luck to you. I know it's not easy.
I used to do this a lot. I would hide from my mom making her think I was walking to school and then go to a friend's house. Unfortunately, she found out with the absences I was getting. Really not good. I almost flunked that year if it weren't for the extra credit and summer classes that were available. The idea of flunking and having to go back to school again was not an option for me. There was no way I wanted to start school all over again.
If you're that anxious think how bad it'll get from there on. I know it's easier said then done but you don't want to work extra hard to make up for what was lost. These things will pass if you get through each obstacle a day at a time. Compare that to an overload of work that was missed, now that's more than an obstacle. Just don't think about it what's going to happen that hasn't happened because it may not be as bad as you thought it would be.
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