Has anyone ever been this paranoid?

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So I found $11.00 on the ground today. One $10.00 bill and one $1.00 bill.

The first thing I thought was that someone had put a poison (possibly the AIDS virus) on the bills and put them on the ground for someone to pickup and become gravely ill.

I know this is OCD, but wondering if anyone has had similar thoughts.

Well it couldn't be the HIV virus because that really can't live outside the human body for very long at all. There are plenty of other things that might be possible.. but it absolutely couldn't have been HIV/AIDS. (not saying that anyone is putting diseases on bills on the ground, but it they were, it wouldn't be that.)

Once when there was a fly in my room, I became paranoid that it wasn't actually a fly, but a miniature flying robot disguised as a fly, which spies on people and reports back to the government. Seriously.

Not about money but about other things. If money is on the ground I figure someone dropped it without knowing about it. Sometimes, I see a shoe in the street and wonder if it's contaminated. Whenever I see belongings, especially ones that look relatively new, I wonder what happened to them that got them tossed. I would never pick up someone else's belongings but if I saw money on the ground I would grab it unless it had something really disgusting stuck to it.

I always wonder if there are dead bodies in places. Like on the side of the road in the grass, in the back of someone's car, in a storage closet.

Not too inaccurate if you are at a major hospital. I used to work in the Transportation department at OHSU. We had a special gurney to move the dead bodies. The color of the cover on this gurney is brown. The cover is large and hangs down to the ground. The gurney looks empty to those around it, but on a second concealed shelf is a dead body being transported to the morgue.

Doctors don't always win, you know.

I worry about stuff like meningitis or recently swine flu a lot.

I think sometimes our mind needs a reason to explain generalized anxiety. For example my son is currently afraid to be in the apartment by himself. Why? Because there are noises. They are just everyday noises like the refrigerator running but they make him anxious. Today we shopped for pants and he didn't want to use the dressing room because it beeped whenever anybody passed through the door. I finally got him to the point where I don't have to stand guard outside the bathroom door at home.
I used to be afraid to go to sleep because the nightmares and night terrors were a nightly event. That was 9th grade.

Yeah. Sometimes I'll spontaneously think there are bombs and run away from them, or that people are following me. I think my most common one is thinking people can read my thoughts.

This summer I had to convince myself that conversions actually did the way I thought they did and that people in fact could not read my mind.

I was (and still am, but much less frequently) afraid that the house would burn down in the night, that we'd be robbed, or (after a presentation on it at school) that rabid wolves would lurk outside the house to give us all rabies.

Sometimes, if more than one neighbor doesn't look at me or smile, (when they usually do) I think that they hate me and are conspiring against me. Since this has really happened, many times in the past, I think it is a real fear.

Rabies is another that scares me too. By the it shows symptoms you're dead.

If I were that paranoid, I wouldn't say it on an internet forum, in case someone read it, and got me committed.

(Am I being serious, only I know!)

I did grow up in a country where bombs went off, and when I see something on the floor, I tend to wonder still if it could be an explosive device. Hence, if I saw a wallet on the floor I'd think twice about picking it up. I think that's a learned fear, and given my background, understandable, if not sensible.

In the office where I work, I'm often convinced that people are talking about me behind my back, and there are a few people who smile at me when they see me, who I know can't stand me. That makes me somewhat stressed. I can't understand why you'd smile at someone's face, then tell lies about them behind their back. Do they not realise that the gossip gets back to me?

Obviously, these aren't very bright women, but the thing is, most people aren't very bright, so I assume this is "normal" human behaviour. I don't like it!

Sometimes when I'm on the bus or train and I smell something fruity, I wonder whether it might be a nerve agent released as part of a terrorist attack (nerve gases are esters and have fruity aromas). Ditto whenever I smell garlic; there are a lot of toxic compounds which smell like garlic (phosphine, trimethyl arsenic, organotellurides, etc).

I've dealt with a lot of anxiety about malevolent supernatural events when I was younger and had experiences and didn't understand how the mind can trick you. It got so bad I was trying to go to school after having fallen asleep at 3 am from exhaustion. I got really tired of it and decided if the bogeyman was going to get me then there was nothing I could do about it. Still I was sleeping with the bathroom light on when I was a teenager. Now I figure if there is a nuclear war- I just want to be vaporized right away because I don't think I have the strength to survive in a post nuclear world.