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past couple weeks, been eating one reeses or one kit kat per day

emotional overeating

some articles claim that chocolate has the same impact/effect on the brain as "love".

i am doomed.

but i am also 42 years old and that is old enough so whatever.

throat feels greasy and gross

wish the serving size was smaller.

love peanut butter and chocolate

comfort zone

comfort food

out of control

failure

yield

hatred

anger

fear

rage

wounded

yesterday, started lunch late. emotionally overeating. ended up eating everything i was supposed to eat for lunch and dinner. so did not eat dinner.

appetite out of control
sleeping and litterboxing out of control

angela w's beak out of control

the parking lot not out of control

angela w and angela d owe me apologies. home depot should've made them redundant a long time ago.

Two fiber one bars and one Reese's today

Emotional overeating

Sweet, chocolate, carbohydrates, granola, peanut butter

Throat just a little greasy

Taste buds getting used to it

Taste buds changed

Creative outlet

today, didn't eat candy/chocolate or anything like that.

kind of wanted to, though.

actually, kind of surprised that i ran the half marathon so quickly, despite recent chocolate.

cravings gone haywire

one easter bunny, get in my beak and gizzard.

My dad purchased some chocolate from the dollar store. One of them was KitKats which was $5 for a snack size bag. A slightly better buy than at Fred Meyer which is a dollar extra.

However, they seem to taste slightly off. Not as chocolatey than usual. I wonder are the dollar store ones factory rejects/lower grade? I would like to hear if anyone had similar experiences.

considering:

on work days, one reeses/kit kat/chocolate/candy. and two fiber one bars.

non work days, no candy/chocolate. (if i get made redundant and it takes a long time to get another job, i will start eating chocolate while still unemployed).

maximum ten fiber one bars per week.

on days that i go to food maxx, maximum one tray of tuna sushi (400 calories) per day. (salmon sushi has 490 calories per tray and i am not going to eat it unless my weight goes drastically down or something).

yesterday, before work, ate the chocolate (topping only) and the peanut butter off a reese's. it was too hard to pick out the chocolate from the Fiber One bars, so did not eat them until lunch.

today, did not eat chocolate.

today, safeway and whole foods open. didn't go. b/c the bus schedule on sunday schedule, and the bus took a longfuck time to come. tomorrow, black friday, bus will be on weekday schedule. the other thing, maybe safeway bakery won't be open or safeway doesn't have lentil salad b/c it's thanksgiving.

food maxx: tuna sushi, cantelope, bananas.

they had naan and wheat pita (which they often don't have), but i didn't get any.

the bao (bread part) tastes kind of greasy actually. throat right now feels a lil greasy, even though i haven't eaten chocolate since lunch yesterday. that's what makes the bao taste good.

love frozen bananas, but feet felt frozen this morning, almost painful. it's too cold to be eating frozen bananas or frozen anything either.

throat still feels kind of greasy after yesterday's reese's.

i wish they had reeses in smaller serving sizes. two peanut butter cups is too much, but my self control is not good enough to just eat "just one" peanut butter cup.

considered going to safeway today. artisan bread, tempeh, lentil salad, maybe tuna sandwich. but didn't wanna waste time, energy and $$ getting off the bus and then going to safeway. and the artisan bread quality has drastically declined since the past four years or so.

kind of wanted to go to ranch 99 too. zongzi. glutenous rice doesn't taste sweet per se, but it allegedly contains plenty of sugar.

thinking about some things make me wanna gorge:
structural enginering
autism
home depot
trannsxxeuality
old man and old woman
friendships, relationships
litterboxing, sleeping, rapidly declining health
$$$$
fear
misunderstanding

compartmentalization

today ate two fiber one bars, chocolate flavor.

ate the chocolate on top of two more fiber one bares. did not eat the chocolate chips out the interior though.

some articles claim that chocolate has the same impact on the brain as love.

today, one fiber one bar and two metamucil (among other things) for breakfast.

two hours later, lied down for one hour. as usual. don't know if i fell asleep.

on the other hand, it seems like time would've gone by slower if i were awake throughout.

the fiber one bar label said it has 9 grams of sugar. maybe all that sugar kept me from falling back asleep.

on the other hand, several times, ate one zongzi (minus the veg, eggs, meat), in addition to other things, for breakfast, and had no difficulty falling back asleep.

still want chocolate right now. brain chemistry out of balance.

past couple weeks, on days off work, after starting lunch, feel like a "trance". (hypnotized). and could not stop eating "lunch", until ate "dinner" as well.

bad habit.

but, 42 years old so whatever.

been rapidly on the decline for a long time anyways.

Today ate the peanut butter out of a pack of Reese's peanut butter cups before work

During lunch ate two fiber one bars and one pack of Reese's

Way too much sugar

Bad habits

Throat still feels greasy

I am such a pathetic disaster

Today ate the chocolate off two packs of Reese's peanut butter cups. Did not eat the chocolate thus far

Cravings gone haywire

Blame stupid lil girl Angela d

Yesterday head cashier Juan said "I'm starving" so I offered to get him lunch from the food cart and he refused

Today did not eat between lunch and breakfast during lunch ate the peanut butter off a pack of Reese's peanut butter cups

After getting home ate the chocolate off

Almost fell asleep on the way to work

Dark chocolate Hershey bar 200 calories

Put it on the conveyor belt and then took it off