I'm so sorry to hear it.
I'm glad you talk about it.
It is serious. I have not experienced it, but, I knew someone with a comparable level of pain from an injury to the femur that for various reasons could not heal, and once they said to me, "People go mad from this. They go mad."
Pain is serious. Severe chronic pain is... a destroyer, a beast.
I hope your meds are good and you're able to at least blunt the edge when you need to.
Wishing you hugs and tea and human support and care in whatever forms you like best.