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sometimes "why" is a good question. sometimes there is not enough information to answer the question "why". there could be a lot of different reasons. everyone has subconscious biases.

cravings gone haywire

chocolate, peanut butter, sugar, salt, cheetos, pringles, munchies. love.

resistance

it's not even 3pm. already went *way* over on servings today. only got three servings left for dinner.

breakfast: metamucil smoothie - (2 greek yogurt, 1 soy milk, 4 metamucil); 2 tofu, 4 servings mango (one and one third extra large mangos),

went to a supermarket that i hardly ever go to

lunch: 2 lentil salads, spam musubi (did not eat the spam), one youseth's back home wrap

felt like could not stop

but enjoyed it a lot

youseth's back home wrap delicious, vegan

still feel like gorging/binging. eating more.

Microwaved two pieces of chicken today and ate them. Ate the fat. Did not eat the skin and bones

Have to stop eating the fat but it tastes delicious and satisfying

Throat feels all gross

Afraid of menstruation and weight gain

paranoid of menstruation.

it appeared that blood came out with urine. hope it's not menstruation. haven't had period since january 2022.

have to immediately stop drinking chicken fat. delicious though it is.

Appetite gone haywire

It could be because of testosterone, emotional overeating or any other reason

On the other hand I am already 42 so whatever

Maybe being fat isn't really that bad

Yesterday ate til bloated and ate some more....

Out of control

Today uncomfortably full

Exhausted

Unsustainable

Extreme

Ate about four extra servings

Enjoyed it

Chicken was good

No junk food though

without more $$$, energy, or time, or skill, there is no sustainable, adequate method for me to make my diet healthier.

but been rapidly getting much more exhausted. and only 42. there is no way i could continue to maintain a job much longer.

crave security and love

i've been wounded.

closure

bored of eating the same thing every day, but:

don't know how to cook
$$$
fat
obsessive compulsive disorder
convenience

variety, "diversity"

cravings
indulge
gorge
binge
withdrawal
deprivation
fast

i've been wounded

waffles pancakes spaghetti meatballs
fried chicken
mashed potatoes
french fries
hash browns
fried rice
fried noodles

Being exhausted all the time makes me feel like gorging and makes me crave junk food

I am considering just eating one serving of junk food daily for the rest of my "life"

Gave up on "life" a long time ago

Binging out of control

Emotional overeating

But whatever. 42 already really old, especially for autistic and transsexual.

"Life" was over a long time ago

today found something that looked like bbq chicken (things not always the way they appear) @ the bus stop.

wanted to eat it, but paranoid of sanitation.

cravings gone haywire

every day

every meal

it's like "life" is just breakfast lunch dinner and waiting for the next one.

no purpose, no meaning

no closure, no apologies

no love
no acceptance
no recognition

idiots owe me apologies!

angela w and angela d
tattletale tom
janice

on the other hand, what is so great about chocolate? it tastes good for a couple of seconds and once it's eaten, it's over.

happiness

love

security

stability

safety

accomplishment

relief

coworkers eat:

ichiraku
food truck
mcdonalds
burger king
safeway sushi
california pizza kitchen
in n out
panda express



cybelles pizza
tamale womans tamales
kona ice, ice cream

ranch 99

my favorite zongzi: cantonese: duck egg and veg, yes rice

taiwan: no duck egg, yes veg, yes rice

shanghai: just rice and meat (did not eat the meat)

today on the bus, found and ate a chicken ciabatta sandwich. delicious.

paranoid of sanitation.

2016, bus stop tamales. litterbox difficulty for one week

but, risk vs reward

past two days, work. as usual, ate two Fiber one chocolate chip protein bars. then, each day, ate all the chocolate off two more Fiber One bars.

might as well start eating candy. Crunch, Twix, Reese's, butterfinger. that way i do not end up with a bunch of protein bars with all the chocolate picked out of them.

craving love

Thinking about the idiots at work makes me want to gorge

Chocolate

Comfort zone

Comfort food

Love

Stability security affection belonging recognition