14 Aug 2017, 3:33 pm
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You're all making me laugh a lot on this page. 
Nice to laugh at something while my pain-in-the-butt computer takes forever to update Windows and I beat myself over procrastination. Now I'm stuck waiting though.
Nice to laugh at something while my pain-in-the-butt computer takes forever to update Windows and I beat myself over procrastination. Now I'm stuck waiting though.Hey, feel free to join us anytime!
The more the merrier!
14 Aug 2017, 4:10 pm
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14 Aug 2017, 4:40 pm
How are we all doing today?
14 Aug 2017, 5:21 pm
14 Aug 2017, 5:30 pm
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
How are we all doing today?
Just found out that August is going to be a really bad month for me socially so anxiety is bad ( too many visitors ) , it's like everyone you haven't seen for a while wants to turn up in a 2 week period , I wanna run away
, apart from that things are good.How are you today?
14 Aug 2017, 5:36 pm
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14 Aug 2017, 5:43 pm
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
How are we all doing today?
Just found out that August is going to be a really bad month for me socially so anxiety is bad ( too many visitors ) , it's like everyone you haven't seen for a while wants to turn up in a 2 week period , I wanna run away
, apart from that things are good.How are you today?
Ahh I hate when that happens! The worst part is when all my relatives visit on my Christmas and Easter holidays- I get no break from all the stress! I hope it goes better than you expect
.I'm doing "okay." Stupid OCD really isn't helping at all.
14 Aug 2017, 5:44 pm
kraftiekortie wrote:
I'm doing okay. I dipped my toe in the Lake of Reason today. But now, on dry land, I feel kooky LOL
You really do like living on the edge
14 Aug 2017, 5:48 pm
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
How are we all doing today?
Just found out that August is going to be a really bad month for me socially so anxiety is bad ( too many visitors ) , it's like everyone you haven't seen for a while wants to turn up in a 2 week period , I wanna run away
, apart from that things are good.How are you today?
Ahh I hate when that happens! The worst part is when all my relatives visit on my Christmas and Easter holidays- I get no break from all the stress! I hope it goes better than you expect
.I'm doing "okay." Stupid OCD really isn't helping at all.
Of course after it's all happened I'll be able to say stoopid anxiety but until then it's kicking my butt.
Sorry to hear about the OCD not helping
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14 Aug 2017, 6:07 pm
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
How are we all doing today?
Just found out that August is going to be a really bad month for me socially so anxiety is bad ( too many visitors ) , it's like everyone you haven't seen for a while wants to turn up in a 2 week period , I wanna run away
, apart from that things are good.How are you today?
Ahh I hate when that happens! The worst part is when all my relatives visit on my Christmas and Easter holidays- I get no break from all the stress! I hope it goes better than you expect
.I'm doing "okay." Stupid OCD really isn't helping at all.
Of course after it's all happened I'll be able to say stoopid anxiety but until then it's kicking my butt.
Sorry to hear about the OCD not helping
Yeah- that's how anxiety goes
. Maybe if I don't go psychotic I'll look back 20 years from now and be like "Why did I put myself through all that worry?" That's if I don't go psychotic lol. It's OK about my OCD- don't be sorry or worry about me lol!
14 Aug 2017, 6:23 pm
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Yeah- that's how anxiety goes
. Maybe if I don't go psychotic I'll look back 20 years from now and be like "Why did I put myself through all that worry?" That's if I don't go psychotic lol. It's OK about my OCD- don't be sorry or worry about me lol!
You could be like me and still worry about it when your 45
but I may have had a psychotic episode - still not convinced but I do know I drove myself to it with worry.Are you telling you therapists exactly what's going on i.e. what you tell us here or you do you censor what you tell them.
Of course I'm gonna worry about you , I worry about everyone I get on with.
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14 Aug 2017, 6:29 pm
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
Yeah- that's how anxiety goes
. Maybe if I don't go psychotic I'll look back 20 years from now and be like "Why did I put myself through all that worry?" That's if I don't go psychotic lol. It's OK about my OCD- don't be sorry or worry about me lol!
You could be like me and still worry about it when your 45
but I may have had a psychotic episode - still not convinced but I do know I drove myself to it with worry.Are you telling you therapists exactly what's going on i.e. what you tell us here or you do you censor what you tell them.
Of course I'm gonna worry about you , I worry about everyone I get on with.
Why do you think you had a psychotic episode? I don't think you have ever been psychotic.
I tell my therapist everything just in case. It also helps to have at least a little reassurance, even though I'm not supposed to have reassurance lol.
Yup- welcome to the worriers club! We worry about every person, place, or thing you can think of!
14 Aug 2017, 6:51 pm
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
Yeah- that's how anxiety goes
. Maybe if I don't go psychotic I'll look back 20 years from now and be like "Why did I put myself through all that worry?" That's if I don't go psychotic lol. It's OK about my OCD- don't be sorry or worry about me lol!
You could be like me and still worry about it when your 45
but I may have had a psychotic episode - still not convinced but I do know I drove myself to it with worry.Are you telling you therapists exactly what's going on i.e. what you tell us here or you do you censor what you tell them.
Of course I'm gonna worry about you , I worry about everyone I get on with.
Why do you think you had a psychotic episode? I don't think you have ever been psychotic.
I tell my therapist everything just in case. It also helps to have at least a little reassurance, even though I'm not supposed to have reassurance lol.
Yup- welcome to the worriers club! We worry about every person, place, or thing you can think of!
It's difficult to put into words but it started like what I've read as an extreme meltdown/shutdown is , I was very emotional ( not like me at all ) , I empathized with nearly everything I saw on the TV . My mind is very creative and found connections where there were none. The coincidences just kept racking up to the point where I was arguing with myself in my mind about what it perceived was happening *I've lost it , No I haven't , Yes I have , ad infinitum* , that's when I really need medical assistance.
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14 Aug 2017, 7:12 pm
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
StampySquiddyFan wrote:
Yeah- that's how anxiety goes
. Maybe if I don't go psychotic I'll look back 20 years from now and be like "Why did I put myself through all that worry?" That's if I don't go psychotic lol. It's OK about my OCD- don't be sorry or worry about me lol!
You could be like me and still worry about it when your 45
but I may have had a psychotic episode - still not convinced but I do know I drove myself to it with worry.Are you telling you therapists exactly what's going on i.e. what you tell us here or you do you censor what you tell them.
Of course I'm gonna worry about you , I worry about everyone I get on with.
Why do you think you had a psychotic episode? I don't think you have ever been psychotic.
I tell my therapist everything just in case. It also helps to have at least a little reassurance, even though I'm not supposed to have reassurance lol.
Yup- welcome to the worriers club! We worry about every person, place, or thing you can think of!
It's difficult to put into words but it started like what I've read as an extreme meltdown/shutdown is , I was very emotional ( not like me at all ) , I empathized with nearly everything I saw on the TV . My mind is very creative and found connections where there were none. The coincidences just kept racking up to the point where I was arguing with myself in my mind about what it perceived was happening *I've lost it , No I haven't , Yes I have , ad infinitum* , that's when I really need medical assistance.
I'm don't think that would qualify as a psychotic episode. I hope not- I've been empathizing more with TV shows recently! What connections did you make where there weren't any?
14 Aug 2017, 7:21 pm
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Britte wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
If it's not painful and nobody minds sharing could you please describe what your senses go through with shutdowns , meltdowns.
For the longest time when I've had an episode ( of whatever is wrong with me ) I've believed I was going mad , felt like I was losing touch with reality , I get hypervigilant and make up all sort of crazy things in my mind but never cross the line where they become delusions ( i.e. completely believe the crazy stuff ) although it doesn't seem far off. I always feel like the next time might be the time I do become delusional and never come back.
For the longest time when I've had an episode ( of whatever is wrong with me ) I've believed I was going mad , felt like I was losing touch with reality , I get hypervigilant and make up all sort of crazy things in my mind but never cross the line where they become delusions ( i.e. completely believe the crazy stuff ) although it doesn't seem far off. I always feel like the next time might be the time I do become delusional and never come back.
This is what happens to me, verbatim. I have not been able to describe it, in words, so, thank you VERY much, posting your description of what happens to you. I am in this state, when I have high anxiety. Yesterday, you wrote somewhere that you stopped considering paranoia, as it is only connected to the S word, and, that it is, instead, your anxiety that you had been experiencing. I went off and introspected on that, and, I am quite sure that it is a form of being paranoid (at least in my case). Even if not diagnosable paranoia. Or, perhaps it is a fine line between extreme anxiety and paranoia. Anyway, your description is exactly, word-for-word what happens to me. It is ignited by being in a previous, anxious or inferior state of mind (in my case). I have put it in the category of social anxiety, but, my therapist says it stems from anxiety, in general.
Wow! You've now made me feel not very special at all
I'm glad my words have helped you and I find it crazy ( perhaps the wrong choice of word ) that you share similar experiences , if your going through anything that I'm experiencing my heart goes out to you 
. Maybe all I have is really bad anxiety then. Yeah the paranoia is not the medical definition of paranoia which is why I call it anxiety and maybe there is a very fine line between paranoia & anxiety. When you bring the S word into the equation , I thought that type of paranoia is believed 100% and unshakable?I was just repeating what you had said, in terms of the S word (a couple of pages, back). But, I am not educated, myself, about the S word. There is a lovely woman who talks about her S in a TEDtalk. You would never know she is S, by all appearances. Not that you are that, but, it just came to mind. Thanks for your empathy. My heart goes out to you, as well. I hope you have had a nice day, Ferris.
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14 Aug 2017, 7:27 pm
Britte wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
Britte wrote:
SaveFerris wrote:
If it's not painful and nobody minds sharing could you please describe what your senses go through with shutdowns , meltdowns.
For the longest time when I've had an episode ( of whatever is wrong with me ) I've believed I was going mad , felt like I was losing touch with reality , I get hypervigilant and make up all sort of crazy things in my mind but never cross the line where they become delusions ( i.e. completely believe the crazy stuff ) although it doesn't seem far off. I always feel like the next time might be the time I do become delusional and never come back.
For the longest time when I've had an episode ( of whatever is wrong with me ) I've believed I was going mad , felt like I was losing touch with reality , I get hypervigilant and make up all sort of crazy things in my mind but never cross the line where they become delusions ( i.e. completely believe the crazy stuff ) although it doesn't seem far off. I always feel like the next time might be the time I do become delusional and never come back.
This is what happens to me, verbatim. I have not been able to describe it, in words, so, thank you VERY much, posting your description of what happens to you. I am in this state, when I have high anxiety. Yesterday, you wrote somewhere that you stopped considering paranoia, as it is only connected to the S word, and, that it is, instead, your anxiety that you had been experiencing. I went off and introspected on that, and, I am quite sure that it is a form of being paranoid (at least in my case). Even if not diagnosable paranoia. Or, perhaps it is a fine line between extreme anxiety and paranoia. Anyway, your description is exactly, word-for-word what happens to me. It is ignited by being in a previous, anxious or inferior state of mind (in my case). I have put it in the category of social anxiety, but, my therapist says it stems from anxiety, in general.
Wow! You've now made me feel not very special at all
I'm glad my words have helped you and I find it crazy ( perhaps the wrong choice of word ) that you share similar experiences , if your going through anything that I'm experiencing my heart goes out to you . Maybe all I have is really bad anxiety then. Yeah the paranoia is not the medical definition of paranoia which is why I call it anxiety and maybe there is a very fine line between paranoia & anxiety. When you bring the S word into the equation , I thought that type of paranoia is believed 100% and unshakable?I was just repeating what you had said, in terms of the S word (a couple of pages, back). But, I am not educated, myself, about the S word. There is a lovely woman who talks about her S in a TEDtalk. You would never know she is S, by all appearances. Not that you are that, but, it just came to mind. Thanks for your empathy. My heart goes out to you, as well. I hope you have had a nice day, Ferris.
Ferris is correct that with the S word, the type of paranoia experienced is an unshakable, fixed delusion. Anxiety can definitely cause paranoid feelings and thoughts, but these thoughts are usually ego-dystonic. Sorry if I'm interrupting your conversation- I've had a rough day in terms of anxiety
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