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I see it had only been a few minutes since the last correspondence with you and Ferris. I deleted as many posts as I could. My sincere apologies, and I will be sure to view the last posts, prior to posting, in the future. I'm very sorry I interrupt your conversation. I wish I had looked to see if there had been a conversation taking place. I deleted as many as I could.

And, Ferris hasn't return, nor have you. I am so sorry. You had been helping each other. I did not know. I would not have interrupted. I had come to answer some inquiries, therefore, I had only been focused on that. I apologize to both of you.

I thought bodily gestures , scratching , coughing etc meant something related to me , even some conversations I was in talking about nothing related to me in some way - like a conspiracy but I knew it wasn't.

Originally I thought it meant people thought I was gay. It's weird to explain , I knew I wasn't gay , I wouldn't have had a problem if I had been gay but the thought of other people using some sort of secret code to imply I was gay was doing my nut it , I couldn't understand why my mind was interpreting things this way , when the rational part of mind was telling me it was all rubbish and I was making it up - I then thought I was S.

Now when I'm feeling fragile my mind jumps straight to S as the logical answer , which is my deepest darkest fear.


I've just read this back and it sounds pretty much like S to me , originally when I was locked up 25 years ago and fed antipsychotics with no diagnosis except a drug induced psychosis , I've had 3 similar episodes where drugs couldn't of been the catalyst but doctors put it down to stress.

The last year has been invaluable to me on this forum as it has been really enlightening about ASD , OCD etc

I still could be S but the Dr's definitely wont diagnose me with it , I've even had brain scans coz I said I must have brain damage then the results showed I did not have brain damage

In fact the last counselor I spoke to regarding this issues asked me if I really wanted a handful of diagnosis as I already had depression

They "locked you up" because they thought you were psychotic?

That's coz it took me ages to write my last post

Only because I was a danger to myself

phew. I'm glad to know that was the reason. I thought I'd answer some of your inquiries regarding relationship between sensory experiences and shutdowns/meltdowns. I wrote a few additional posts, prior to realizing I interrupted you, but, had since, deleted them. All, while you had been typing out your post. Well, there you have it. I am hopeless. : )

I told you , you should of put "This post will self destruct in 10 seconds" as your sig

I want to know what you said now

This is the only place in the world where I can have converstaions with more than one people at time , I would run away if we were all in the same room

I promise to return, later. I am packing up to leave work and have to go do an errand. You may be asleep. I promise not to delete. I am going to try and create my signature, now. *So grateful that you haven't disowned me, as of yet*

Look forward to your insight Britte

I get what you mean, but, I am quite sure that I wouldn't run away if we were all in the same room. As, I think we would all get on, famously. Just my feeling/opinion. See you, later.

If this is a difficult subject for you Stampy , we should perhaps give it a rest for a while

^Indeed. I had mentioned the same, earlier.

(for some reason, I am unable to make my signature visible...)

Edit: ^Fixed

awesome sig

I don't know about you but I have had a longer to come to terms with my problems even if they were incorrect theories
but this appears to be fresh for SSF - the scariest time for me.


If your reading this Stampy , take a break and come back when your ready and we can change the subject as well