21 Aug 2017, 5:04 pm
Has anyone seen Ferris recently?
More visitors today and until the end of the week - I'm gonna be drained
Oh dear! Sorry about that- that's a lot of visitors
!Today was an improvement on how I thought it would go - I had a little wobble but it went surprisingly well - I'm mentally drained though
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21 Aug 2017, 5:09 pm
Has anyone seen Ferris recently?
More visitors today and until the end of the week - I'm gonna be drained
Oh dear! Sorry about that- that's a lot of visitors
!Today was an improvement on how I thought it would go - I had a little wobble but it went surprisingly well - I'm mentally drained though
I know what you mean! I get mentally drained from a 3 hour birthday party lol
.Ferris isn't psychotic! Ferris isn't psychotic! Yayayayayyay!
The fact you passed that test made my day
21 Aug 2017, 5:09 pm
No schizophrenic has ever seen the nose stick out before! Ferris isn't psychotic! I was right hehe!
Of course the illusion comes back in to view when it comes back around
! I hate illusions like those- they scare me half to death! Probably won't look at that link- I think I've seen it and failed one of them before 
. It was the one with the arrows. But my point is, the Hollow Mask Illusion is basically the golden standard from what I've read. Some "normal" people don't see the nose stick put, but from what I've seen no schizophrenic has ever passed before !Don't give me any ideas
.The arrow test is an easy one to fail if you seen it before , the lines look longer but I know they are not from loving optical illusions as a kid.
It also means your not psychotic either dude
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21 Aug 2017, 5:11 pm
No schizophrenic has ever seen the nose stick out before! Ferris isn't psychotic! I was right hehe!
Of course the illusion comes back in to view when it comes back around
! I hate illusions like those- they scare me half to death! Probably won't look at that link- I think I've seen it and failed one of them before . It was the one with the arrows. But my point is, the Hollow Mask Illusion is basically the golden standard from what I've read. Some "normal" people don't see the nose stick put, but from what I've seen no schizophrenic has ever passed before !Don't give me any ideas
.The arrow test is an easy one to fail if you seen it before , the lines look longer but I know they are not from loving optical illusions as a kid.
It also means your not psychotic either dude
Yeah I know that too but they sure do look longer!
Yeah, but I can't convince myself that, so I'll just settle on you not being psychotic and work from there
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21 Aug 2017, 5:24 pm
No schizophrenic has ever seen the nose stick out before! Ferris isn't psychotic! I was right hehe!
Of course the illusion comes back in to view when it comes back around
! I hate illusions like those- they scare me half to death! Probably won't look at that link- I think I've seen it and failed one of them before . It was the one with the arrows. But my point is, the Hollow Mask Illusion is basically the golden standard from what I've read. Some "normal" people don't see the nose stick put, but from what I've seen no schizophrenic has ever passed before !Don't give me any ideas
.The arrow test is an easy one to fail if you seen it before , the lines look longer but I know they are not from loving optical illusions as a kid.
It also means your not psychotic either dude
Yeah I know that too but they sure do look longer!
Yeah, but I can't convince myself that, so I'll just settle on you not being psychotic and work from there
!But I thought we were the same
(Joke)If you think the lines look longer then you passed the test dude
Yeah I know it's hard to convince yourself , your superior intelligence is your downfall in this respect.
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21 Aug 2017, 5:59 pm
No schizophrenic has ever seen the nose stick out before! Ferris isn't psychotic! I was right hehe!
Of course the illusion comes back in to view when it comes back around
! I hate illusions like those- they scare me half to death! Probably won't look at that link- I think I've seen it and failed one of them before . It was the one with the arrows. But my point is, the Hollow Mask Illusion is basically the golden standard from what I've read. Some "normal" people don't see the nose stick put, but from what I've seen no schizophrenic has ever passed before !Don't give me any ideas
.The arrow test is an easy one to fail if you seen it before , the lines look longer but I know they are not from loving optical illusions as a kid.
It also means your not psychotic either dude
Yeah I know that too but they sure do look longer!
Yeah, but I can't convince myself that, so I'll just settle on you not being psychotic and work from there
!But I thought we were the same
(Joke)If you think the lines look longer then you passed the test dude
Yeah I know it's hard to convince yourself , your superior intelligence is your downfall in this respect.
We are the same! Oh wait, that means I have to convince myself I'm not going psychotic. We're 99.9% the same!
Really?
Doesn't it say schizophrenics have a harder time with it? I thought I had a harder time than most people maybe. Don't know what superior intelligence you're talking about, though. Who said I was smart
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21 Aug 2017, 6:23 pm
No schizophrenic has ever seen the nose stick out before! Ferris isn't psychotic! I was right hehe!
Of course the illusion comes back in to view when it comes back around
! I hate illusions like those- they scare me half to death! Probably won't look at that link- I think I've seen it and failed one of them before . It was the one with the arrows. But my point is, the Hollow Mask Illusion is basically the golden standard from what I've read. Some "normal" people don't see the nose stick put, but from what I've seen no schizophrenic has ever passed before !Don't give me any ideas
.The arrow test is an easy one to fail if you seen it before , the lines look longer but I know they are not from loving optical illusions as a kid.
It also means your not psychotic either dude
Yeah I know that too but they sure do look longer!
Yeah, but I can't convince myself that, so I'll just settle on you not being psychotic and work from there
!But I thought we were the same
(Joke)If you think the lines look longer then you passed the test dude
Yeah I know it's hard to convince yourself , your superior intelligence is your downfall in this respect.
We are the same! Oh wait, that means I have to convince myself I'm not going psychotic. We're 99.9% the same!
Really?
Doesn't it say schizophrenics have a harder time with it? I thought I had a harder time than most people maybe. Don't know what superior intelligence you're talking about, though. Who said I was smart
?From what I can gather , schizophrenic brains are not fooled by optical illusions ( I think only the hollow mask is the really documented one though ).
The way you write and your knowledge suggests you are smart , to me your insight about your problems suggests a higher intellect especially at your age
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21 Aug 2017, 6:32 pm
Yeah, that makes more sense about the optical illusions .
I'm convinced my writing is disorganized and paranoid lol! My insight is just from the Internet. If you had known about all these terms like "Schiz OCD" or "fake paranoia" you would have had more insight too .
21 Aug 2017, 6:45 pm
.I'm convinced my writing is disorganized and paranoid lol! My insight is just from the Internet. If you had known about all these terms like "Schiz OCD" or "fake paranoia" you would have had more insight too
.I see nothing wrong with your writing , you haven't posted anything that I would consider disorganised or paranoid , you make perfect logical sense and have even helped me understand whats going on with me. It's just anxiety your feeling about your writing. Yeah the internet might of been helpful back in the day but I also think it might have had a negative effect as well - too much information and possible diagnosis
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21 Aug 2017, 7:04 pm
Completely agree about the internet . I'm always taking those stupid online quizzes and researching to see if I have a mental disorder I don't know about! That's how I got scared in the first place- the stupid Internet . It's been a blessing and a curse for me. At least I have a good handle of what's going on, but I wouldn't even need to know I had OCD if it hadn't been for the Internet. My anxiety can convince me I'm hallucinating even when I'm not, so maybe that's why. I'm also pretty tired, so my posts make not make a whole lot of sense lately. Hypochondria sucks!
21 Aug 2017, 7:09 pm
Your posts always make sense.
Hypochondria certainly does suck 
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21 Aug 2017, 7:15 pm
Haha yeah thanks a lot Google!
Someone said on a hypochondria forum once that they had a "Google degree" in schizophrenia from researching it so much . I have a Google degree in every single mental illness on the planet, including, but not limited to
-Schizophrenia
-Bipolar Disorder
-Cyclothymia
-Schizoid Personality Disorder
-Schizotypal Personality Disorder
-Paranoid Personality Disorder
-Antisocial Personality Disorder
-Borderline Personality Disorder
-Histrionic Personality Disorder
-Narcissistic Personality Disorder
-Avoidant Personality Disorder
-Delusional Disorder
-Psychotic Disorder NOS
-Dissociative Identity Disorder
-Schizoaffective Disorder
-Munchausen Syndrome
-Ganser Syndrome
-Dissociative amnesia
-Dissociative fugue
-Dissociative disorder NOS
No, Ferris, you DO NOT look up any of these disorders (joking, of course, but try not to )!
21 Aug 2017, 7:22 pm
Someone said on a hypochondria forum once that they had a "Google degree" in schizophrenia from researching it so much
. I have a Google degree in every single mental illness on the planet, including, but not limited to-Schizophrenia
-Bipolar Disorder
-Cyclothymia
-Schizoid Personality Disorder
-Schizotypal Personality Disorder
-Paranoid Personality Disorder
-Antisocial Personality Disorder
-Borderline Personality Disorder
-Histrionic Personality Disorder
-Narcissistic Personality Disorder
-Avoidant Personality Disorder
-Delusional Disorder
-Psychotic Disorder NOS
-Dissociative Identity Disorder
-Schizoaffective Disorder
-Munchausen Syndrome
-Ganser Syndrome
-Dissociative amnesia
-Dissociative fugue
-Dissociative disorder NOS
No, Ferris, you DO NOT look up any of these disorders
(joking, of course, but try not to )!I don't have to try , I've already looked
Confirmation bias can really do your head in some times
21 Aug 2017, 8:11 pm
Never heard of "hollow mask illusion." Just did it. Very cool! I have absolutely no fear about being schizophrenic, so I didn't care what my result was.
Thought I'd throw an OCD question out there. One of the OCD things I struggle with the most in everyday life is reading. I was curious if others experienced the same. I was hyperlexic as a child and taught myself to read at age 4. All throughout my childhood, up until my OCD became severe with pure "O" obsessions at age 11 1/2, I could read through any kind of noise, any kind of situation, and I read really fast. But ever since around 11 1/2, I now read quite slowly and have to either have white noise or complete silence. Otherwise, I will read and re-read over and over again. If I don't understand every single word, I have to read the sentence again and again until I "get" it.
The really weird thing is that, when I'm reading something for fun that I don't think "matters", like a magazine or a comic book, I can revert back to my childhood reading state and can read very fast and not have to repeat. But the minute I think what I'm reading "matters" (which is most of the time, because I usually read science textbooks), the OCD-type reading starts where I have to re-read everything. I guess it's an underlying obsession of not remembering or understanding everything. I do have a compulsive need to "know." But it's annoying, and I was wondering if anybody else experienced it. Luckily, it has gotten a lot better since I started on Anafranil, because I used to always have songs stuck in my head in the background, so when I would read, I'd "hear" both my inner reading voice AND the words of the song that was stuck in my head. It was awful! It was like my brain had two "planes."
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21 Aug 2017, 8:17 pm
Oh dear........ 
I hate that dumb confirmation bias! It just annoys me when I pass the Hollow Mask Illusion, but does that make me less anxious? No! Of course not! It makes me more anxious and have nightmares about it for weeks! Come on OCD, give me a break ! (Not a psychotic break, or course!)
We need like a warning when we Google something LOL. It could be something like, "Don't read this article unless you want it to be all you think about for the next 3 months" Actually, come to this k of it, that would make me want to read it more . You can't win with this stupid disorder!
21 Aug 2017, 8:20 pm
Thought I'd throw an OCD question out there. One of the OCD things I struggle with the most in everyday life is reading. I was curious if others experienced the same. I was hyperlexic as a child and taught myself to read at age 4. All throughout my childhood, up until my OCD became severe with pure "O" obsessions at age 11 1/2, I could read through any kind of noise, any kind of situation, and I read really fast. But ever since around 11 1/2, I now read quite slowly and have to either have white noise or complete silence. Otherwise, I will read and re-read over and over again. If I don't understand every single word, I have to read the sentence again and again until I "get" it.
The really weird thing is that, when I'm reading something for fun that I don't think "matters", like a magazine or a comic book, I can revert back to my childhood reading state and can read very fast and not have to repeat. But the minute I think what I'm reading "matters" (which is most of the time, because I usually read science textbooks), the OCD-type reading starts where I have to re-read everything. I guess it's an underlying obsession of not remembering or understanding everything. I do have a compulsive need to "know." But it's annoying, and I was wondering if anybody else experienced it. Luckily, it has gotten a lot better since I started on Anafranil, because I used to always have songs stuck in my head in the background, so when I would read, I'd "hear" both my inner reading voice AND the words of the song that was stuck in my head. It was awful! It was like my brain had two "planes."
I don't have a diagnosis of OCD ( it does seem very likely though ) so may not be relevant but if it helps I just reread your post about 6 times and some lines I had to read again and again before it sank in - The TV is on though quite loud as my GF is going deaf. I'm not sure it's necessarily an OCD trait though , I could be wrong though.
