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09 Sep 2017, 8:48 pm
Hmm Ferris, I'll have to check out that video.
Well, I told my therapist about our discussion here and he gave me a new technique to use for anxiety. He actually explained what it would do for me this time, and surprise, it has almost entirely gotten rid of my paranoid thoughts!
My other homework isn't doing so well! I am supposed to spend time with my dad, exercise, and read something that bores me half to death every single day for 30 minutes. When I tried my hardest to do it, he wasn't at all happy with the results and said "I expected this because you're autistic. Your autism makes you rigid and stubborn to traditional CBT methods." Oh really? I didn't know
. So I have basically given up on that homework. If you want me to do something I hate, I need advice and encouragement, not that I am a stubborn old goat who refuses to do anything. He is not going to be happy with me, but he wasn't even happy with me when I gave my best effort, so it won't make much difference anyway.
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10 Sep 2017, 11:01 am
! I hope all of us here can get support if they need it! 
Sometimes it's not about the support , just c̶o̶m̶p̶l̶a̶i̶n̶i̶n̶g̶ sharing is beneficial , this thread has been so enlightening for me , it's like I was living in darkness and a light bulb was turned on.
I'm glad it has been enlightening for you! Complaining is a great way to get my anxiety off my chest!
Good
On another note , I don't watch AGT but a video just came up in my FB feed of Darci Lynne , she was brilliant , she is going to a huge star.
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10 Sep 2017, 1:19 pm
She is awesome! I honestly think she will win the whole show. Oh yeah, guess who I am probably going as for Halloween ? Simon Cowell!
10 Sep 2017, 4:03 pm
? Simon Cowell! If you came trick or treating at my house dressed as Simon Cowell I would be petrified
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10 Sep 2017, 5:28 pm
? Simon Cowell! If you came trick or treating at my house dressed as Simon Cowell I would be petrified get off my stage!
10 Sep 2017, 7:13 pm
It is my personal feeling/opinion that you do, discuss your concerns and needs, with your teacher. You have a real condition and concern, and you are right to protect your mental/psychological well-being. If your teacher takes issue with it, I would speak with your Mom and ask if she would support your efforts and help you speak further, with your teacher. It is very important, and very healthy that you are considering taking action to protect yourself/your mental well-being. Good on you!
I am still doing well, and thank you for your kind words! Let me know if I may offer you more thoughts on your situation. I would be happy to. Of course, Ferris amd perhaps others may be along, to offer you their thoughts/wisdom. So glad you're doing well (apart from your anxiety), and I am so pleased to hear from you!
Thank you! I know exactly what brought it on- it was definitely the video. This is why I don't want to learn about schizophrenia in class. One mention of it can bring on anxiety and paranoid thoughts for months! I'm so glad they stopped for a while. I haven't had so much peace from these thoughts for so long!
Thank you also for your advice! I doubt my teacher will have an issue with it. He is like the nicest guy ever and all he does is make jokes all day! I really don't want more anxiety, so I think it will be a good thing to tell him.
No problem! Thank you so much for your advice! It really helps to always have people to talk to that understand, and I am so grateful for your and DataB4's advice! I am so pleased to hear from you as well- I really missed you! Hugs!
Hi Stampy. I've really missed you, too! And, it's my pleasure if I can be of help, in anyway. : )
Im glad to hear your description of your teacher. He sounds great! I, too, agree, that if you know in advance, what to expect, it could, very well, relieve your anxiety to a large extent. I find it extremely helpful in my case, anyway.
I experience paranoid thoughts, myself, when exposed to my phobias, or triggers that manifest from residual post-trauma related stress I experience. You are very wise to keep at bay, the things that could trigger long-term anxiety. I have to do the same, or I lose my ability to concentrate effectively, on my work, and life. I worry, and ruminate most of the time, and I can become physically unwell, as a result, as well. Anyway, forgive me for going on about it, since you seem to have a resolution in mind, at this point. I am glad to read your responses to Ferris and DataB4.
I hope you have a wonderful, most productive (and fun) week, ahead! : )
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11 Sep 2017, 6:14 am
Brit, not nearly as effective as your experience with the cough drops you suggested. I just sound tired and scratchy at the moment but I don't have to talk to anyone until this afternoon.
My other homework isn't doing so well! I am supposed to spend time with my dad, exercise, and read something that bores me half to death every single day for 30 minutes. When I tried my hardest to do it, he wasn't at all happy with the results and said "I expected this because you're autistic. Your autism makes you rigid and stubborn to traditional CBT methods." Oh really? I didn't know
. So I have basically given up on that homework. If you want me to do something I hate, I need advice and encouragement, not that I am a stubborn old goat who refuses to do anything. He is not going to be happy with me, but he wasn't even happy with me when I gave my best effort, so it won't make much difference anyway.Yuck! Hmm, one of his top goals should be to motivate his clients. If so, then I think he'd be really interested in how you feel. I wonder how he'd react if you told him straight: you feel that he criticized your best effort. If he actually meant to criticize your best effort, then you could add your feeling that he won't be happy with any effort.
If it's not too personal, I'd be interested in this really effective technique you learned.
I was thinking about how to express my curiosity, but then I got a little anxious about it, since I didn't want to be pushy about things that might be difficult to discuss. Then I read your message again today, and I decided to just tell you, and give you an easier way to choose not to talk about it. I'm not anxious about it anymore.Anyway... There's an old obsession of mine that I'm being somewhat drawn back into. Only now, the cool part is that I'm not so afraid and anxious about it anymore. Now it's just an interest. If anyone's wondering, the obsession was religion. I was so afraid I'd be sent straight to hell when I die.
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11 Sep 2017, 6:13 pm
Oh my god- you all are so helpful. I can't believe it! I have convinced myself that I am bipolar all day today (not that there is anything wrong with being bipolar, but you know me ). Thank you guys so much. It feels like I actually have some hope left now. Hugs to you all!
@Ferris- Thank you for the reassurance ! Honestly, I am almost convinced that I am insane right now, so it really helps. I originally considered stress as a cause, but I wasn't stressed or anxious when this started. I will follow your advice though, definitely. I took a hot shower, and I'm not sure if it did much but I am feeling slightly better now (although I am worried because I am writing way too much and that must mean I'm manic). My brain has gone through some really weird chemical changes recently, and I just pray that it doesn't cause bipolar disorder for me. I also sometimes feel the urge to scream, although that may be due to the pain from my headache . I would like to thank you again, because this helped a lot!
@DataB4- Thank you so much for your theory and sharing your experience ! It does seem like my headache might be causing some of those feelings. I think either the racing thoughts caused the headache, or the headache caused the racing thoughts. The headache isn't that bad, but it does hurt. Then again, I may just be a crybaby . Thanks again! Your idea seems pretty plausible.
@Britte- I would like to thank you so much for everything. This post really helped me. You are honestly the kindest person I have ever met. Hugs !
I was pretty sad for the past few days, and when I took a few minutes to imagine something happy (I also imagined myself being really happy and expressive in my daydream) everything just fired out of control. Your theory seems extremely likely- I just hope that those neurons firing didn't cause a hypomanic or manic episode. I am trying my hardest not to daydream today because I am so scared I will experience this again. I feel a lot better now, and I will definitely tell my psychologist about this tomorrow, and ask for ways how to prevent it. Physical illness may also be pretty likely. Could it be something like allergies, or the change in weather (it's getting cold, and them warm again where I live)? That may explain the headache, but I don't know if it would explain the racing thoughts. I will try the cool cloth. Thank you so much for the kind wishes! I am not doing so well right now, but you guys have at least given me hope to at least make it through tomorrow before I see my psychologist .
Thanks again guys!
11 Sep 2017, 7:12 pm
I'm glad your headache isn't really really bad, Stampy. The really bad headaches with no known cause are the ones doctors worry about the most. Anxiety mixed with pain can still cause racing thoughts and intense feelings though. Not knowing the nature of the headache, hard to say what would help: heat, ice on head or neck, shower, massage, sleep, pain relievers maybe. All of those have helped me deal with different headaches.
You said you've been sad. Anything in particular that you want to talk about?
Oh, and one more thing: I have never ever been in full control of my thoughts and perceptions. Not even close!! ! I'm still sane though. 
