I understand a lot of what you are saying. It's difficult to know what constitutes an emotion especially since we are unable to actually feel what others feel, we only hear what they tell us about them and see how they react to their own emotions. I'm still not sure what I feel and whether they are emotions, feelings or a conditioned response. I feel like if I try to have more emotions that I'll be overwhelmed, it seems like everyone else has so much feeling compared to my own. My emotions seem dull and short. I'm still looking for answers but the link helped a little in that I now realise that everyone has different scales of emotions and feelings and that it may just be that my feelings aren't as strong as others, a bit like my pain threshold.