social phobia and insomnia?

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...I have AS ,OCD traits and tics...as a child was DX with selective mutism and always had social anxiety

I had some rough time at uny lately and I think I might have social phobia..I always was anxious and being on the spectrum doesn't help in socialization but I think, actually I'm frightened Im developing extreme social phobia...and I don't want to prevent me from living my life as best as I can...plus I have insomnia (had sleep problems all my life) I was on and off meds since puberty...was given 3 types of drugs to help me sleep but it turned out I was allergic to one and now I sleep 0-16 hours per week-and it sucks because my stimming and tics are way worse during the night...so I started to wear helmet-before it was just a sensory need...and now it turned into 'drug' for anxiety...feeling helmet pressures my head feels really good and it helps me with anxiety issues in general...

I always 'disliked' answering phone calls, going to new place and had trouble with meeting new people but I got used to 'ok this is going to be weird but I'll survive and perhaps eve like it afterwards'...

but now-I didnt go to classes, job, couldnt even go to pharmacy to pick up meds for my brother because I was too anxious about going outside and talking to the pharmacist, only hanged out with one friend who also has social phobia and BPD ...I supposed to be at work this morning, I couldnt go , they called and texted me-I couldnt answer so I shut my ears til the ringing ended, I still havent read the message they sent me, I cant even call my parents because Im anxious and dont know what to do...this is going on for at least 3 months (extreme symptoms) but had them for at least 6 months-but now its so bad I cant even step outside my appartment...cant go to work, avoid any contact even on facebook or such...

does this sound like social phobia? dont know what to do-and my shrink is on vacation til august starting monday so :/ and Im really not in the mood to search for another therapist...there is a CBT service but while I was there therapist told me I was crazy (obsessions for snowploughs and airplanes) and I never went back and do not want it ever...and that is the only CBT service in my country I can afford (there is another CBT therapist but it costs too much-what I'd give for a month of th sessions for the one I've been to I'd give it for just 1 appointment with this one and Im broke so..)...the other option is to call my assisstant at uny, she is special ed research assisstant specialized in ASD-she helped me a lot...and she knows Im struggling lately...so help...please...I want to socialize (forget the fact I suck at it) but now I panic everytime someone calls me on telephone and going out is temporarily impossible