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17 Dec 2015, 5:17 pm
30 Dec 2015, 6:33 pm
wrongdimension wrote:
Hello,
I've known about this website for eons ever since it was proposed by family that I may have Asperger's Syndrome rather than the mental illness I was diagnosed with. That was my early 20's over ten years ago now and at the time I vehemently rejected the notion of having a form of autism, I mean I had been "cool" and had a hard partying social life and girlfriends.....what do you mean I'm autistic? Can't be.
Well.....that was then. I now know that I very well could have been on the spectrum, I have always been very different, still am. I was diagnosed with ADD and a mathematics related "learning disability" as well as oppositional defiant disorder (which I don't even believe in the existence of) by the age of about 7. Depression and anxiety in my teens and then finally a diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder in my early 20's.
These days I wish I'd been diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome as I feel it may have taken a radically diferent course and would more accurately describe why I am the way I am. I don't feel like writing a long post here, I'm tired inside and hurting due to social isolation and the general feeling of being alone at the bottom of an unescapable pit of dispair. Just thought I'd introduce myself here....looking back it was a pretty terrible introduction and entirely lacking my full story.......the hope is that that will come later I guess.
Posting on these sorts of forums has probably led to my downfall into the afformentioned "pit" and yet I can't keep myself away.....just a more comfortable outlet and for some reason it seems to satiate the deep seated and painful feelings of loneliness I hold within.
I've known about this website for eons ever since it was proposed by family that I may have Asperger's Syndrome rather than the mental illness I was diagnosed with. That was my early 20's over ten years ago now and at the time I vehemently rejected the notion of having a form of autism, I mean I had been "cool" and had a hard partying social life and girlfriends.....what do you mean I'm autistic? Can't be.
Well.....that was then. I now know that I very well could have been on the spectrum, I have always been very different, still am. I was diagnosed with ADD and a mathematics related "learning disability" as well as oppositional defiant disorder (which I don't even believe in the existence of) by the age of about 7. Depression and anxiety in my teens and then finally a diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder in my early 20's.
These days I wish I'd been diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome as I feel it may have taken a radically diferent course and would more accurately describe why I am the way I am. I don't feel like writing a long post here, I'm tired inside and hurting due to social isolation and the general feeling of being alone at the bottom of an unescapable pit of dispair. Just thought I'd introduce myself here....looking back it was a pretty terrible introduction and entirely lacking my full story.......the hope is that that will come later I guess.
Posting on these sorts of forums has probably led to my downfall into the afformentioned "pit" and yet I can't keep myself away.....just a more comfortable outlet and for some reason it seems to satiate the deep seated and painful feelings of loneliness I hold within.
I can't believe no one responded to your post
Sry I'm late but....Welcome to WP
Many of us have experienced the loneliness/social isolation and emotional pain that you are relating in your post.
Feel free to post more and we have a special section called Haven for those who need support.
This section doesn't get a lot of action
Glad to have you on the site
