Meaningful Quotes and Passages from Books
This quote was posted on a NT forum that I visit but I think it’s even more relatable to people on the autism spectrum.
”This life is a test. It is only a test. If this had been a real life, you would've been given instructions about where to go and what to do.”
So many times throughout my life I’ve wanted to say… “JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT. TELL ME THE TRUTH. I DON’T UNDERSTAND AMBIGUITY OR PASSIVE AGGRESSION. BE DIRECT. I WON’T UNDERSTAND HIDDEN AGENDAS.”
I’ve always appreciated what Socrates says about death in the Apology. Some parts of Plato’s dialogues are very moving.
“Let us reflect in another way, and we shall see that there is great reason to hope that death is a good, for one of two things: - either death is a state of nothingness and utter unconsciousness, or, as men say, there is a change and migration of the soul from this world to another. Now if you suppose that there is no consciousness, but a sleep like the sleep of him who is undisturbed even by the sight of dreams, death will be an unspeakable gain.
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Now if death is like this, I say that to die is gain; for eternity is then only a single night. But if death is the journey to another place, and there, as men say, all the dead are, what good, O my friends and judges, can be greater than this? If indeed when the pilgrim arrives in the world below, he is delivered from the professors of justice in this world, and finds the true judges who are said to give judgment there, Minos and Rhadamanthus and Aeacus and Triptolemus, and other sons of God who were righteous in their own life, that pilgrimage will be worth making. What would not a man give if he might converse with Orpheus and Musaeus and Hesiod and Homer? Nay, if this be true, let me die again and again. I, too, shall have a wonderful interest in a place where I can converse with Palamedes, and Ajax the son of Telamon, and other heroes of old, who have suffered death through an unjust judgment; and there will be no small pleasure, as I think, in comparing my own sufferings with theirs. Above all, I shall be able to continue my search into true and false knowledge; as in this world, so also in that; I shall find out who is wise, and who pretends to be wise, and is not. What would not a man give, O judges, to be able to examine the leader of the great Trojan expedition; or Odysseus or Sisyphus, or numberless others, men and women too! What infinite delight would there be in conversing with them and asking them questions!”
https://classics.mit.edu/Plato/apology.html
I’d very much like to believe that Socrates is annoying some historical figure at this very moment in his quest for knowledge and truth.
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“The darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.”
— from Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot
I want to post a long quote from the book I’ve been reading. It’s been swirling in my head because I find it relatable for a few reasons. I want to quote it here, so I can revisit it. It’s from Uncultured - a memoir about a woman who was raised in an extreme cult, left, and eventually joined the US military. This segment is from when she was at a military training center:
“Well, as one of the few of us who’s already been to war,” said one of the prior-service lieutenants who had crossed over from being a staff sergeant and already had years of experience as an interrogator, which he reminded us of in every conversation, “I can promise you that these are bad guys. If I have to torture a thousand innocent people in order to save one American life, I’ll do it, no question!”
I studied one face to the next, each nodding in agreement and mumbling confirmation of their righteous rage at anyone who dared to not be an American. How was it possible that nine out of the ten most intelligent, competitive, best-of-their-class army officers were casually—and publicly—expressing their belief that torture is justified, for any reason? Not to mention against the innocent.
But I knew. It was part of why I never really felt at home, never American enough—I hadn’t gotten the same indoctrination as everyone else growing up. America does what the army does, just at a larger and more insidious scale. The programming begins at birth: America is the greatest country on earth. We are the best, down with all the rest, and if we have to torture a thousand innocent people to prove it, so be it. When you believe you’re the best, the chosen ones, then the end can always be made to justify the means.
That day, I promised myself that I wouldn’t hate groups of people: I’d seen where that could lead. I knew I couldn’t share that out loud. There was no room for disagreement in that crowd. Looking over at the prior-service lieutenant who’d spoken, I briefly wondered how he would respond if I stood up and said, “Well, as one of the few of us who’s experienced torture here…” But my words stuck in my throat, and I thought this would be a secret I’d have to keep for the time being. I won’t hate groups of people, I repeated to myself. Not the Afghans, not the Iraqis, not those we partnered with who ended up betraying us. Not even the terrorists.
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“The darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.”
— from Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot
Some quotes from Kate Chopin’s The Awakening - a book that’s meant a lot to me over the years:
“Mrs. Pontellier was not a woman given to confidences, a characteristic hitherto contrary to her nature. Even as a child she had lived her own small life all within herself. At a very early period she had apprehended instinctively the dual life--that outward existence which conforms, the inward life which questions.”
"I would give up the unessential; I would give my money, I would give my life for my children; but I wouldn't give myself. I can't make it more clear; it's only something which I am beginning to comprehend, which is revealing itself to me."
“It sometimes entered Mr. Pontellier's mind to wonder if his wife were not growing a little unbalanced mentally. He could see plainly that she was not herself. That is, he could not see that she was becoming herself and daily casting aside that fictitious self which we assume like a garment with which to appear before the world.”
“‘She won't go to the marriage. She says a wedding is one of the most lamentable spectacles on earth. Nice thing for a woman to say to her husband!’ exclaimed Mr. Pontellier, fuming anew at the recollection.”
“The bird that would soar above the level plain of tradition and prejudice must have strong wings. It is a sad spectacle to see the weaklings bruised, exhausted, fluttering back to earth.”
"The years that are gone seem like dreams--if one might go on sleeping and dreaming--but to wake up and find--oh! well! perhaps it is better to wake up after all, even to suffer, rather than to remain a dupe to illusions all one's life."
“The voice of the sea is seductive, never ceasing, whispering, clamoring, murmuring, inviting the soul to wander in abysses of solitude.”
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“The darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.”
— from Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot
I meditate in the bath. The water needs to be very hot, so hot you can barely stand putting your foot in it. Then you lower yourself, inch by inch, till the water’s up to your neck. I remember the ceiling over every bathtub I’ve stretched out in.
I remember the texture of the ceilings and the cracks and the colors and the damp spots and the light fixtures. I remember the tubs, too: the antique griffin-legged tubs, and the modern coffin-shaped tubs, and the fancy pink marble tubs overlooking indoor lily ponds, and I remember the shapes and sizes of the water taps and the different sorts of soap holders.
I never feel so much myself as when I’m in a hot bath.
— Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar
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“The darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.”
— from Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot
- Inner silence works from the moment you begin to accrue it. What the old sorcerers were after was the final dramatic, end result of reaching that individual threshold of silence. Some very talented practitioners need only a few minutes of silence to reach that coveted goal. Others, less talented, need long periods of silence, perhaps more than one hour of quietude,before they reach the desired result. The desired result is what the old sorcerers called "stopping the world", the moment when everything around us ceases to be what it's always been. This is the moment when sorcerers return to the TRUE nature of man. The old sorcerers always called it "total freedom" Don Juan (Carlos Castanada)
I’m searching yet again for a poem I read in college that left an Impression on me, but I doubt I’m likely to find it. Still, I think this one, published in 1918, is nice. I should read more by Georgia Douglas Johnson.
The Heart of a Woman
The heart of a woman goes forth with the dawn,
As a lone bird, soft winging, so restlessly on,
Afar o’er life’s turrets and vales does it roam
In the wake of those echoes the heart calls home.
The heart of a woman falls back with the night,
And enters some alien cage in its plight,
And tries to forget it has dreamed of the stars
While it breaks, breaks, breaks on the sheltering bars.
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“The darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.”
— from Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot
Ilsa made a cup of coffee, and then settled down to watch Ox News. Ox News had led its viewers through the stages of shock and denial associated with Joe Biden’s victory in the 2020 election. Moving beyond anger and depression, to acceptance, was not going to happen. To retain its loyal viewer base, the management at Ox News recognized that it had no choice but to continue giving its audience the anger fix that it lustfully craved. Otherwise, Ox News was in danger of losing viewers to increasingly-popular streaming channels that had begun offering programming that was even angrier, more radical, and less reluctant to push outrageous conspiracy theories, no matter how inane. If the streaming channels continued to draw viewers away, then Ox News would lose revenue from advertisers. A faithful viewership was the commodity, and advertisers were the customers.
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"We are all gonna die." --Senator Joni Ernst
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
And look upon myself and curse my fate,
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featured like him, like him with friends possessed,
Desiring this man’s art and that man’s scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least;
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think on thee, and then my state,
(Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth) sings hymns at heaven’s gate;
For thy sweet love remembered such wealth brings
That then I scorn to change my state with kings.
— Shakespeare
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“The darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.”
— from Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot
So, they went off together. But wherever they go, and whatever happens to them on the way, in that enchanted place on the top of the Forest, a little boy and his Bear will always be playing.
— A.A. Milne, The House at Pooh Corner
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“The darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.”
— from Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot
[Nasreddin had to don his finest clothes in order to be admitted to a fancy dinner party.]
He reached over, took a piece of meat and stuffed it in his shirt. He poked the next piece into his cummerbund. Then he jammed one into each pocket of his pants. All eyes were on Nasreddin as he gathered the long sleeves of his cloak and soaked them in the bowl of hot gravy.
A stunned guest jumped to his feet and demanded, Effendi! [Sir!] What is the meaning of your outrageous behavior?" "Well," said Nasreddin Hodjah, "when you find yourself in a place where clothes are more welcome than the person wearing them, you must feed the clothes first and the person afterward!"
“The Musician’s Day” from Memoirs of an Amnesiac by Erik Satie:
I rise at 7:18; am inspired from 10:23 to 11:47. I lunch at 12:11 and leave the table at 12:14. A healthy ride on horseback round my domain follows from 1:19 P.M. to 2:53 P.M. Another bout of inspiration from 3:12 to 4:07 P.M. From 4:27 to 6:47 P.M. various occupations (fencing, reflection, immobility, visits, contemplation, dexterity, swimming, etc.)
Dinner is served at 7:16 and finished at 7:20 P.M. From 8:09 to 9:59 P.M. symphonic readings (out loud). I go to bed regularly at 10:37 P.M. Once a week, I wake up with a start at 3:19 (Tuesdays).
My only nourishment consists of food that is white: eggs, sugar, grated bones, the fat of dead animals, veal, salt, coconuts, chicken cooked in white water, fruit-mould, rice, turnips, camphorated sausages, pastry, cheese (white varieties), cotton salad, and certain kinds of fish (without their skin). I boil my wine and drink it cold mixed with the juice of the Fuchsia. I am a hearty eater, but never speak while eating, for fear of strangling.
I breathe with care (a little at a time). I very rarely dance. When walking, I clasp my sides, and look steadily behind me.
My expression is very serious; when I laugh it is unintentional, and I always apologize most affably.
I sleep with only one eye closed, very profoundly. My bed is round, with a hole to put my head through. Once every hour a servant takes my temperature and gives me another.
I have subscribed for some time to a fashion magazine. I wear a white cap, white stockings, and a white waistcoat.
My doctor has always told me to smoke. Part of his advice runs: “Smoke away, dear chap; if you don’t someone else will.”
https://www.theparisreview.org/blog/201 ... cians-day/
https://www.amazon.com/Direct-Video-Oth ... =3&depth=1
Over the years, it's since become known how certain respected movie makers or actors have gotten their start working in the production of these godawful, should-have-been cinematic abortions. Or how such bad films have gained cult followings in the years after, with their creators achieving dubious fame. Roger Corman lived to see his movies gain almost mainstream status. Al Adams gained a degree of notoriety after it was reported on the national news how he was murdered and buried in concrete by his handyman. And Ed Wood had Plan Nine From Outer Space, which posthumously gained him notoriety, even if it was for making what has been called the worst movie in cinematic history.
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"We are all gonna die." --Senator Joni Ernst
Still I Rise
by Maya Angelou
You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.
Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
’Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.
Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?
Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
’Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own backyard.
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.
Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?
Out of the huts of history’s shame
I rise
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

