This is the only place I can say I'm proud of myself. I can be proud of my own slow accomplishments without feeling different.
So I'm glad that I don't only feel so connected to music, that I'm sorry I didn't study it earlier, as I always feel music, but now I actually started playing stuff by ear, despite thinking that I can never do it! But after years of practice I actually can!
And I am considered such a great potential for so many things, that I don't necessarily want. So to finally succeed in something that I want, that is much harder to me than lots of other stuff, well, it means a lot to me!
I am so happy.
So perhaps I won't be a pro musician.
But at least I have my hobby.
And It's worth so much, and I don't even care how much naive I sound right now.
I just love music. Thank God, if it exists, for that.