I have an online friend. We talk on Kik every day unless one of us is asleep. Her time zone is fourteen hours behind mine.
I really like her. I'm quoiromantic I think, if not then completely aromantic (and asexual). The thing is, hours ago when she was meant to be sleeping she was drinking and I suppose she was upset but she wouldn't really talk to me about it and I tried talking to her and it wasn't working. I could have talked to her about the movie I was watching but she said she'd seen it before and well. She said how she couldn't find anyone to care about her and kept talking about being alone. I decided I can't tell her that I like her even if all I can manage is a queerplatonic thing because she keeps going on about guys and I don't want to ruin anything. I like talking with her.
But. I messaged her a few times when she was asleep and I know now that she's read them but she hasn't replied and I think she's upset somehow, I don't know what I did and I don't know if she'll talk to me anymore. I guess I should just go to sleep and see if she would message me later. I mean, I've messaged her too many times (like four) now and I know she read them (Kik says when people do) so I know that she doesn't want to talk to me. Maybe she went back to sleep? I don't know. She has insomnia and always messages when she wakes up so this is new. Could she just be upset? I'm not very good at helping people when they're upset so I might not have been very helpful.
I hope she talks to me but I don't want to message again and be annoying. So should I just see if she messages sometime later and if she doesn't then I guess she doesn't want to talk to me anymore? Or should I wait and message her later?
I'm just worried because she's the only person I really talk to and I don't want to go back to not really connecting with the other acquaintances I have, though I see her as a friend and my "other friends" as acquaintances because we don't talk enough or about anything really.
23 Mar 2015, 9:08 am
