What do you do when you're lonely/stressed or both?

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This, plus some forum postings and facebook status updates... except I feel lonely pretty much 99% of the time. I just want to get a girlfriend so i can make all this pain go away and perhaps become a little more normal.

Play Fallout for hours on end. Go on Wrongplanet. If I feel really burnt out, usually from just sheer adrenal crash from being too overwhelmed, I'll go to bed at like 5-6PM, and wake up later that night. One time, I went to bed after having 2 16 oz redbulls in a row, just from being too stressed out and the Redbull making my body run out of dopamine. I take energy drinks a lot, too, as a stopgap to still get through my day if I feel like everything's going terribly.

If I got some physical energy, I'll go lift weights, work on cars, in general exercise. If the scheduling is good, I'll take an extra public session at the ice rink to cheer myself up.

My taste in music changes too. I tend to listen to slower stuff when I'm feeling kinda down, ie, right now, I'm listening to "Love Me As Though There Were No Tomorrow" from Fallout. Sometimes my music will get slightly darker. I listen to music as much as possible regardless, I need it to stay sane, I think.

I'm usually not too aware of my feelings, that's something to get used to, since I now get the luxury of feelings again. I didn't have that luxury for a lot of my life. Can't say I enjoy it, it makes me very unproductive compared to just having no feelings at all.

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Play videogames for hours until i'm too tired to feel anything, sleep. Write it off, listen to music.

I usually sing songs, make ret*d noises (such as "beep beep", "euhhhh", etc), make car noises, etc. I only do that only when I'm in my own room, though.

Wonder if its really worth continuing

I don't think there's ever a moment I don't feel at least somewhat lonely. I guess I just live with it for now. It only evr really bothers me at night when I'm not doing anything but trying to sleep.

It definitely is, imho (and I'm amazed to see myself write this, considering that I've spent most of my life lonely and depressed). You will either get used to your situation and make the best of it, like I'm doing nowadays, or you will meet someone special. Often when you least expect it*. But that can only happen if you keep going.


*Fun anecdote: When I started an apprenticeship there was another apprentice, a cute and bubbly girl who liked to talk to me for some strange reason. She came over to my desk during lunch break and we chatted about job-related things, our instructor and co-workers, things like that. Well, she chatted a lot more than I did I thought it was just because we were the only two people in our age group and trained for the same job, and I would never have dared to talk to her if she hadn't attached herself to me like that.

A year later she hooked up with a guy who went to the same vocational school, and he told me that she told him she did have a crush on me back then Apparently, she really liked my blue eyes. I never realized that. What a missed opportunity. My point is, these opportunities arise out of the blue whenever you meet new people, at a new place of work or a support group or wherever. Even if you're as shy and awkward and aspie-ish as I was and still am. All you need to do is wait and look out for such a chance.

I ignore it. It will eventually go away. I am not sure if that is a good idea, but I hope I will eventually stop caring about trivial things like loneliness.

Yeah, I am not too happy right now. Whatever.

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